Wednesday Morning
Sometimes I tell people how I'm failing; very often I hear back about all the work I do and how that's not failing. It's rather like being complimented on your form while you're drowning. There's such a distance between what I'm doing and what I want to do. The only way to remedy this is to do the work I want to do. Understanding that doesn't mean immediate money most likely, and that's problematic, as this family of mine requires a fairly steady stream of immediate money.
But this family of mine is also growing up. Harmony is graduating. I'm not sure exactly how we transition her into her supporting herself rather than us supporting her - I want it to be much less abrupt and scary than what I went through myself - but I do know that there will be a transition. Nadia's starting high school, and those four years pass in the blink of an eye. I'm sure there will be a transition phase there as well. What these changes will look like I don't know; I will never stop working but I feel like the consequences of having one really bad day or even week will be somewhat less.
Hee. My Facebook just kicked up the news that my best friend from high school, a woman I lived with for a time, had a baby last night. Here I am looking at the end of one life phase and she's embarking on it. What's funny about that is part of what I envy about her is how she's been able to do many of the things I haven't done, because family. Maybe we all go through certain phases, just at different times. Maybe we all get what we need in the end. I hope so. That would be nice.
But this family of mine is also growing up. Harmony is graduating. I'm not sure exactly how we transition her into her supporting herself rather than us supporting her - I want it to be much less abrupt and scary than what I went through myself - but I do know that there will be a transition. Nadia's starting high school, and those four years pass in the blink of an eye. I'm sure there will be a transition phase there as well. What these changes will look like I don't know; I will never stop working but I feel like the consequences of having one really bad day or even week will be somewhat less.
Hee. My Facebook just kicked up the news that my best friend from high school, a woman I lived with for a time, had a baby last night. Here I am looking at the end of one life phase and she's embarking on it. What's funny about that is part of what I envy about her is how she's been able to do many of the things I haven't done, because family. Maybe we all go through certain phases, just at different times. Maybe we all get what we need in the end. I hope so. That would be nice.