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I have no idea what I'm doing. And I'm freaking out. And I'm tired. What the hell.
I was in the middle of helping Dan move out of his apartment with Kristin and Britta called me. Apparently, Alpha leased our apartment (the one she already lives in) to someone else. For a lot more. Like, two months ago. And we signed our lease Monday. So basically, he broke the law by double leasing the place. The solution Britta told me was that we could fight it but because we hate Alpha and the apartment's nothing amazing, it's not worth it, and we'll just look for another. So I said sure, and we'll work it out from there. THen I got home and told my parents. They FLIPPED OUT. And made me flip out in the process. They're saying I should fight it if only to get Alpha to pay, they're saying they're going to call Boston housing authority and such and I'm just freaking out in my head. I don't even know the whole situation and they're talking about lawyers and GAH! There's a reason I should've stayed on campus. I'm not old enough for an apartment. I can't do this.
Kristin basically attacked my religion today. I'm ever so glad she always feels the need to do that. We're driving over to RIT to move Dan out, and she's saying she doesn't understand how anyone can follow organized religion much less the catholic church. I don't know how, but she managed to insult Mother Theresa...saying that missionaries would be able to help more if they stopped trying to convert. I can't even think of everything that she said any more. I don't even fight it because a) she's much better at debates and there's no point in fighting with her, and b) she's an atheist, so saying this is what I believe wouldn't go over too well. She just keep saying things like, "how can someone blindly follow organized religion that hurts so many others" or something like that. Well thank you, but it's NOT blind. I DO believe this. I don't know why, but in my heart, I believe in God and Jesus and I love church. Sure I hate the fundamentalist beliefs and I hate people that try to convert those that don't want to be converted. I believe that condoms and birth control are useful for those having premarital sex or for those with/preventing stds. I personally am trying to wait for sex, but if I end up losing my virginity before I get married, you're damn right I'm gonna at least use a condom if not be on the pill. I also believe that the catholic church is insane for continuing to push abstinence in Africa where it's obviously failing. Yes, it's a great idea, but not everyone's going to follow it. And for the US and the Church not to supply simple pieces of latex that could save millions of lives is stupid. (Don't get me started on our own government). But there's a big difference between the person who believes in the teachings of catholocism and someone who believes in certain actions that the government systm the church has set up. Yeah, that probably changes what religion I actually follow, but I haven't found it yet, so get off my fucking back and stop calling me an idiot for having a different faith. And if you read this Kristin, that's why I compared you to Spencer. No other atheist I know makes me me feel so miniscule for my faith. It's what gets me through life. SO if you want to have a discussion with me, don't start off by insulting me...maybe then it'll be a discussion instead of a lecture.
Wow, I have a huge migraine. I'm tired and stressed and just want to stop and probably sleep. I don't want to go job hunting. I don't have a car, so I don't know how I'm ever going to make a job work. My dad keeps lecturing me to get a job. I know I need an f'ing job, I (presumably) have an apartment and tuition and books and furnishings to pay for. I'm so broke I won't be doing a thing this summer. I have less than $2000 combined in my bank accounts and $1000 of that is money my parents forwarded to me (from the college money they save for me) for my lease. So basically, I have to make that back to pay for tuition. But the logistics of getting a job are insane. First of all I REALLY don't want to go back to Rite Aid. They don't pay me enough and don't give me enough hours for the money I need to make. I want a nursing job, or a waitressing job....or both if I can. I really wouldn't mind working my ass of this summer. I'd spend less. 'Cept on gas, which my dad also yells at me about. I haven't even been home a week and he's yelling at me to pay for gas. I haven't even driven a full tank yet!
I'm tired. I think I'm anemic. I haven't been eating right or taking my vitamin. Joy.
I was in the middle of helping Dan move out of his apartment with Kristin and Britta called me. Apparently, Alpha leased our apartment (the one she already lives in) to someone else. For a lot more. Like, two months ago. And we signed our lease Monday. So basically, he broke the law by double leasing the place. The solution Britta told me was that we could fight it but because we hate Alpha and the apartment's nothing amazing, it's not worth it, and we'll just look for another. So I said sure, and we'll work it out from there. THen I got home and told my parents. They FLIPPED OUT. And made me flip out in the process. They're saying I should fight it if only to get Alpha to pay, they're saying they're going to call Boston housing authority and such and I'm just freaking out in my head. I don't even know the whole situation and they're talking about lawyers and GAH! There's a reason I should've stayed on campus. I'm not old enough for an apartment. I can't do this.
Kristin basically attacked my religion today. I'm ever so glad she always feels the need to do that. We're driving over to RIT to move Dan out, and she's saying she doesn't understand how anyone can follow organized religion much less the catholic church. I don't know how, but she managed to insult Mother Theresa...saying that missionaries would be able to help more if they stopped trying to convert. I can't even think of everything that she said any more. I don't even fight it because a) she's much better at debates and there's no point in fighting with her, and b) she's an atheist, so saying this is what I believe wouldn't go over too well. She just keep saying things like, "how can someone blindly follow organized religion that hurts so many others" or something like that. Well thank you, but it's NOT blind. I DO believe this. I don't know why, but in my heart, I believe in God and Jesus and I love church. Sure I hate the fundamentalist beliefs and I hate people that try to convert those that don't want to be converted. I believe that condoms and birth control are useful for those having premarital sex or for those with/preventing stds. I personally am trying to wait for sex, but if I end up losing my virginity before I get married, you're damn right I'm gonna at least use a condom if not be on the pill. I also believe that the catholic church is insane for continuing to push abstinence in Africa where it's obviously failing. Yes, it's a great idea, but not everyone's going to follow it. And for the US and the Church not to supply simple pieces of latex that could save millions of lives is stupid. (Don't get me started on our own government). But there's a big difference between the person who believes in the teachings of catholocism and someone who believes in certain actions that the government systm the church has set up. Yeah, that probably changes what religion I actually follow, but I haven't found it yet, so get off my fucking back and stop calling me an idiot for having a different faith. And if you read this Kristin, that's why I compared you to Spencer. No other atheist I know makes me me feel so miniscule for my faith. It's what gets me through life. SO if you want to have a discussion with me, don't start off by insulting me...maybe then it'll be a discussion instead of a lecture.
Wow, I have a huge migraine. I'm tired and stressed and just want to stop and probably sleep. I don't want to go job hunting. I don't have a car, so I don't know how I'm ever going to make a job work. My dad keeps lecturing me to get a job. I know I need an f'ing job, I (presumably) have an apartment and tuition and books and furnishings to pay for. I'm so broke I won't be doing a thing this summer. I have less than $2000 combined in my bank accounts and $1000 of that is money my parents forwarded to me (from the college money they save for me) for my lease. So basically, I have to make that back to pay for tuition. But the logistics of getting a job are insane. First of all I REALLY don't want to go back to Rite Aid. They don't pay me enough and don't give me enough hours for the money I need to make. I want a nursing job, or a waitressing job....or both if I can. I really wouldn't mind working my ass of this summer. I'd spend less. 'Cept on gas, which my dad also yells at me about. I haven't even been home a week and he's yelling at me to pay for gas. I haven't even driven a full tank yet!
I'm tired. I think I'm anemic. I haven't been eating right or taking my vitamin. Joy.