FuckMyLife
Wednesday night at A-Bees, KIDS EAT FOR $.99!! THAT MEANS PEOPLE TIP EVEN SHITTIER YAAAAAY!
Well I guess I wasn't even supposed to work tonight so technically I have $50 extra dollars now, and we get paid tomorrow so thats another $30-$50 (maybe less, maybe more, depends on what I worked and I honestly can't remember).
Saturday was Chicago day, I realized my 11 year old brother can never live in a big city, we wanted to walk from Columbia Universities music campus to the water tower...we thought it was like 10 blocks max...well we were wrong, but anyway it wasn't that far, but after 2 blocks Aaron threw a shit fit and wanted to get a cab, and me and Brent were all ''fine you two take a cab but we ain't looking like pansies!" in all honesty it was way farther than we thought but we were fine, we actually had to stop and have my mom [who was walking slow to walk alongside with Aaron] and Aaron who was walking like he was in the damn desert, it was like 60 degrees, even with it being a little windy and looking over the lake that had HUGE ice chunks it was hot enough to go without a coat. Everyone decided that I had to drive out of the city though, because my mom almost killed us on the way in..and she doesn't know how to tip taxis....she gives them way more than they need. Plus a minute after we got out of our taxi drivers cab he rear ended the guy in front of him...haha.
I realized I freaked out over what I thought was going to be the hardest audition of my life, which turned our to be done and over with in about 5 minutes! Okay so yeah I fucked up my song ''Think of Me'' and even though the evaluator and the pianist put me at a little ease [we talked about 'Across The Universe' for about 3 minutes] I was still nervous and flubbed my entrance to the second verse. She helped me into it though, she was smiling and after I was done she asked if I liked my selections ["Think of Me" from the Phantom of the Opera, and "Let it Be" by the Beatles] and I replied with 'i love them, i dont know why I screwed up I know them by heart' and she replied with ''its just nerves, everyone gets them'' so I'm hoping that was like a ''yeah everyone fucks up but you still did good'' im on pins and needles waiting to hear back from the school, everyone says it's so easy to get into that I'm freaking out thinking I won't get in. All I can think about is moving to Chicago and starting my life....I've never wanted to be somewhere more in my life and I hope I get accepted, otherwise I'm going to go to Millikin then re-audition for Columbia next year again.
My mom got her income tax back though so after my audition we went shopppping. I found hella cute socks and a great top at H&M, I also found the best accessories at this place called ALDO. The lady was following me around helping me and she goes "You're a purple person arent you? everything you pick up is purple" and Brents standing next to me and was like "Yea I've been evaluating her, every 4 out of 5 items she touches is purple"....at Sephora the only make up I touched was either purple itself or had purple in holder plus I got amazing purple nail polish called ''caffeine fix''.........haha I'm addicted I swear.
Last night my mom decided to take us to the mall in Davenport to go shopping. On the way she asked "Are you going to Florida with us?", this has been the millionth time she's asked, and everyone was ''no im saving up for new york'' but she talked me into it so from March 18-25 I get to go to Florida and April 10-13 I get to be in New York, I haven't been on a vacation in almost 4 years and I get to take two in a 6 month period? WTF...this is awesome. The only thing bad about it is insteaed of saving up money I'll be spending it and if I want to move next semester I need money. but Sarah[me] still wants to audition for the Showboat and you don't get paid shit for that....maybe I'll just be in one show.....Every summer I have this argument with myself, show boat or summer of work and concerts?........I still haven't decided, and it still sucks...
this is why I titled this entry fuck my life......
ps: I am super sad that chris brown apparently beat up Rhianna, because for one I LOVE rhianna and for two I LOVE Chris Brown and that shit just breaks my heart.