Mar 11, 2004 17:24
Life.
A big ass game.
yuppers....you roll the dice get a good hand. Move. Roll the dice, move, go back 3 spaces. Skip a turn, uno!, SORRY, MONOPOLY....life.
I dunno what point that had, but i felt like sharing.
I had a panic attack the other night. Dude I miss the fucking god damned Bean WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??????? i hate that place, naw fuck hate..i DEPISE that place and all it contains, crack heads and broken fucking dreams.
Um, cops came out yesterday..fun times.
I literally ran today. do ya alls know how much i hate running?...i was THAT hyper. A good nights sleep is what I needed. and some COFFEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Um, gettin the house apraised Monday.
You know who's been poppin up in my mind latley? Jiggs, Jiggs and Josh actually. *shudders* As much as I try to push that shit to the back of my mind amd move on...I keep I dunno, yeah
Like the whole panic attack thing. about how badly my life sucks..which in all reality its not THAT bad. I kept thinking about how i contimplated suicide this summer, and how bad shit used to be with Josh, how just...yeah u know?
I hate not being able to breath...I hate it. Thats also why I could never do speed...I'm NATRUALLY HYPPPPPPER so if i take speed, it sloooows my breathing a lot. Sounds fucked up welp, it is.
Um, what else. I guess thats about it i have been writing on papers latley. I do that when i got deeeeeeeeep shit on my mind.
peace, love, unity and respect.
mmmmmmmm raves.