The end of the road. a long hard road.
so. im a swinging single again.
im not too sure how im supposed to feel about this. a lot of people are telling me that its okay and to feel good about it that its 'finally over' but i dont know if i like it being over. i can't stop thinking if he's okay. im really worried about him. and it really hurts. i never thought that i could fall as hard as i did. all i can really say is i need some neosporin and bandaids. my knees are scraped pretty hard. but ill be okay. cuts take some time, and so will i.
dad was really cool about the whole thing this morning. i can't really explain it. its like.. he understands. and hes letting me do whatever now, cuz.. i need it i guess. whatever. i dunno. dad is so damn random with this shit. its crazy.
mom called me this morning. it was funny. i told her about it and shit, and she said ill be okay and shit. and she told me to be good, and i said 'weeeeell.." and she replies 'at least be good at what you do.' haha. what a crackhead. shes a funny gal. im glad shes my mom. i miss her and i hope she can come up here and see me soon.
so now im chillin at joes house. i need a day with the guys. =) its nice. so far we've just chilled here and i think that's all we're gunna do. we were gunna go and do some frisbee golfing. but whatever. fuck that shit. i hate that. augh.
so yeah.
i didn't get much sleep last night. i finally fell asleep at about.. erm. 4 and i was awake at 7. what a wonderful way to start the day. be tired as hell, and crying. not a good combo. i've been able to keep it at bay so far. but thats only so far. but im getting sick of chris getting pissed at me if i had a few tears. what the fuck dude? i was with this guy for 4 months, and i can't even cry about it anymore? or should i say.. my eyes cry. =)
im gunna say adios, and te amo now. cuz im gunna get going, and chill with the guys. i feel the love, thanks chris. =)
im not too sure how im supposed to feel about this. a lot of people are telling me that its okay and to feel good about it that its 'finally over' but i dont know if i like it being over. i can't stop thinking if he's okay. im really worried about him. and it really hurts. i never thought that i could fall as hard as i did. all i can really say is i need some neosporin and bandaids. my knees are scraped pretty hard. but ill be okay. cuts take some time, and so will i.
dad was really cool about the whole thing this morning. i can't really explain it. its like.. he understands. and hes letting me do whatever now, cuz.. i need it i guess. whatever. i dunno. dad is so damn random with this shit. its crazy.
mom called me this morning. it was funny. i told her about it and shit, and she said ill be okay and shit. and she told me to be good, and i said 'weeeeell.." and she replies 'at least be good at what you do.' haha. what a crackhead. shes a funny gal. im glad shes my mom. i miss her and i hope she can come up here and see me soon.
so now im chillin at joes house. i need a day with the guys. =) its nice. so far we've just chilled here and i think that's all we're gunna do. we were gunna go and do some frisbee golfing. but whatever. fuck that shit. i hate that. augh.
so yeah.
i didn't get much sleep last night. i finally fell asleep at about.. erm. 4 and i was awake at 7. what a wonderful way to start the day. be tired as hell, and crying. not a good combo. i've been able to keep it at bay so far. but thats only so far. but im getting sick of chris getting pissed at me if i had a few tears. what the fuck dude? i was with this guy for 4 months, and i can't even cry about it anymore? or should i say.. my eyes cry. =)
im gunna say adios, and te amo now. cuz im gunna get going, and chill with the guys. i feel the love, thanks chris. =)