"i waded out too far... lost sight of the shore."
it is a snow day today! no classes. i should study instead. but i'm going out for coffee with will and emma. hahaha. vancouver, you suck. sometimes i am ashamed that you are part of BC. i have had native vancouverites get very indignant whenever i laugh at how little they can handle snow... but i cannot help it. my terrace upbringing demands disdain.
things that are good!
i studied my cards book more last night.
i started taking vitamins again this morning.
i made myself breakfast and ate it. and tea!
i'm staying away from hardcore junk food.
i try to tidy little things in my bedroom... not really ready for a hardcore clean but i put things back in their places or fix them or throw them away instead of leaving them alone.
i put on makeup. look cute today!
doing my dishes. eating regular meals.
listening to my intuition and getting more in touch with my spirituality.
so far i am not exhibiting any major major warning signs. such as:
not eating or eating way too much or eating really unhealthily
spending a lot lot lot of money... actually i am doing that, but it's on things i need and couldn't buy until my loan came in. hmmmm. will keep an eye on that.
not wearing makeup at all, ever, or wearing it really excessively.
living in a mess... well, i'm in the process of fixing that one. heh.
hermiting
always needing to be with people and never having time to myself
wandering with no-where to go
things i do need to work on:
doing my reading assignments
going to class
doing things i mean to do when it's not the middle of the night...
eat more vegetables & drink more water
keeping consistent with my cleaning habits
going to bed before four am.
finish studying my book so i can finally do readings.
keep gettng exercise and biking places instead of taking the bus. this one is hard to keep up on when it's so damn cold outside.
there are lots of other little things i need to work on...
anyways, i decided that as my little corner of the internet, i am going to be more honest with my livejournal about how things are going for me. a la yesterday. my entries tend to be a bit vague and in-the-moment-y. but today i feel pretty okay! it can be a bit up and down. anyways, these are my goals.
the album He Poos Clouds was made with the intention that no one who heard it would ever want to kill themselves.
and i'm pretty sure it would work. not that i ever seriously wanted to hurt myself. but it helps renew that feeling that beauty is inherently in the world, even if not always immediately perceived in your life.
yeah!! BABIES!
things that are good!
i studied my cards book more last night.
i started taking vitamins again this morning.
i made myself breakfast and ate it. and tea!
i'm staying away from hardcore junk food.
i try to tidy little things in my bedroom... not really ready for a hardcore clean but i put things back in their places or fix them or throw them away instead of leaving them alone.
i put on makeup. look cute today!
doing my dishes. eating regular meals.
listening to my intuition and getting more in touch with my spirituality.
so far i am not exhibiting any major major warning signs. such as:
not eating or eating way too much or eating really unhealthily
spending a lot lot lot of money... actually i am doing that, but it's on things i need and couldn't buy until my loan came in. hmmmm. will keep an eye on that.
not wearing makeup at all, ever, or wearing it really excessively.
living in a mess... well, i'm in the process of fixing that one. heh.
hermiting
always needing to be with people and never having time to myself
wandering with no-where to go
things i do need to work on:
doing my reading assignments
going to class
doing things i mean to do when it's not the middle of the night...
eat more vegetables & drink more water
keeping consistent with my cleaning habits
going to bed before four am.
finish studying my book so i can finally do readings.
keep gettng exercise and biking places instead of taking the bus. this one is hard to keep up on when it's so damn cold outside.
there are lots of other little things i need to work on...
anyways, i decided that as my little corner of the internet, i am going to be more honest with my livejournal about how things are going for me. a la yesterday. my entries tend to be a bit vague and in-the-moment-y. but today i feel pretty okay! it can be a bit up and down. anyways, these are my goals.
the album He Poos Clouds was made with the intention that no one who heard it would ever want to kill themselves.
and i'm pretty sure it would work. not that i ever seriously wanted to hurt myself. but it helps renew that feeling that beauty is inherently in the world, even if not always immediately perceived in your life.
yeah!! BABIES!