i can't live forever, i can't always be. one day i'll be sand on a beach by the sea.
i am always tired these days. i've had about a week and a half of pms, as tends to happen, but i feel super spread-thin and ready for it to be over. by the time i get another day off it'll have been a full month without a day off of work. i mostly try to just get it over with and keep my nose to the grindstone, as salt spring is short staffed at the moment and there's nothing to be done about it, but... fuuuuuuck... my kingdom for a day of chill. i know there's probably more than a few people out there feeling socially neglected, but lately all i want to do when i'm not at work is curl up in my bed with my laptop, eat food, burn incense, drink tea, and read or watch cartoons or listen to music. and it's kinda all i have been doing. i know i need to be getting a bit more exercise, though, and i think once my hormones swing back around i'll be able to. right now, just... uuurrrgggh. it's raining a ton, so biking isn't really a desirable option. i was doing really well at the beginning of the season, but the constant rain kind of has me feeling a little s.a.d-ish. going tanning tonight and gonna buy vitamin d supplements to try and stave it off. i'm still drinking lots of water, though, back-pat.
jobs are going good. re-considering what i want to do re: school. maybe ubc in the fall? flip, flop, flip, flop, WHY YES I AM A LIBRA HOW DID YOU KNOW
a really cute boy asked me out over the dating website i am on. he seems really rad and cute and likes coffee and good music and cats, so i said yes. he was also the first person to straightup ask me out rather than sending me longwinded messages, which i suppose i wouldn't find charming if i didn't think he was cute. so, i guess i have a date sunday? also a certain gentleman may be visiting me again in december, which would be kinda awesome. i have been having a lot of repeat flirty encounters with cute main street boys. so i guess something is working for me right now.
i've been drawing a bit again. i feel like i've lost a lot of ease, but i think it'll come back. anyone who wants to pose for me is greatly encouraged to.
i have this playlist of MAD AWESOME songs for november. it's not totally done yet, but i think i will finally sign up with some kind of online storage shit and put it up for download once it's done. srsly. MAD AWESOME.
i really really really want to go raving. it's so super hard to feel like i can when i work the next day constantly. also i have some stupid student loan shit to pay off and am trying to get my birth certificate re-printed to i can get my enhanced id, so i'm super loathe to spend money on anything unnecessary. and there were a ton of rad shows this month already that i missed. however. RAVING. just throwing it out there. i feel like i have some stuff to release through the therapeutic power of interpretive dance!
jobs are going good. re-considering what i want to do re: school. maybe ubc in the fall? flip, flop, flip, flop, WHY YES I AM A LIBRA HOW DID YOU KNOW
a really cute boy asked me out over the dating website i am on. he seems really rad and cute and likes coffee and good music and cats, so i said yes. he was also the first person to straightup ask me out rather than sending me longwinded messages, which i suppose i wouldn't find charming if i didn't think he was cute. so, i guess i have a date sunday? also a certain gentleman may be visiting me again in december, which would be kinda awesome. i have been having a lot of repeat flirty encounters with cute main street boys. so i guess something is working for me right now.
i've been drawing a bit again. i feel like i've lost a lot of ease, but i think it'll come back. anyone who wants to pose for me is greatly encouraged to.
i have this playlist of MAD AWESOME songs for november. it's not totally done yet, but i think i will finally sign up with some kind of online storage shit and put it up for download once it's done. srsly. MAD AWESOME.
i really really really want to go raving. it's so super hard to feel like i can when i work the next day constantly. also i have some stupid student loan shit to pay off and am trying to get my birth certificate re-printed to i can get my enhanced id, so i'm super loathe to spend money on anything unnecessary. and there were a ton of rad shows this month already that i missed. however. RAVING. just throwing it out there. i feel like i have some stuff to release through the therapeutic power of interpretive dance!