so baisically get this
alright..so the other day since ryan wasn't talking to me
i left him a voicemail before 5th per.
saying i couldn't do this anymore..yadda yadda yadda
and later that night..i IMed him..and he IMed back
and i asked him if he got the message i left him
he informed me that he had lost his phone!
but he was going to his friends' house in a bit and he thoght it might be there
so yeah....i d/k
i told him to call me as soon as he could
of course i havent gotten a call since then..
and i dont know what our deal is
his myspace says he's in a relationship
and im still #1 on his top 8
but who knows how much you can trust mysapce right??
yeah..i d/k and neither does anyone else
BECAUSE I HAVENT SEEN HIM OR TALKED TO HIM!
im so stuck!
and i've cried every day
i miss him so much..but i cant be with someone that does some of the things he does
but im in love with im!
i dont kow what to do anymore and its messing me up!
and friday i went to rachel's house and made some friends from south
and one of the guys, Brent, had seen pics of me and thoght i was hot
he's cute too..but im like..stuck!!!
and we hung out..and hes reeeally cool
but if ryan and i broke up..i dont know if i can do this relationship thing again
i've been hurt too many times and i just keep letting it happen
AHHHHHHHHH im going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the other night was sooo fun! but like.........
i dont know what to do
things keep getting messed up
and i dont know if im in or out of a relationship
its like
"the post oh my gosh what have i done limbo after a break up"
--the OC
yeah that is deff. true for me..
oh yeah..and im gaining weight..for surely gaining weight
enogh that im deff. noticing it
and its not even cool.
i dont know...its messed up
i left him a voicemail before 5th per.
saying i couldn't do this anymore..yadda yadda yadda
and later that night..i IMed him..and he IMed back
and i asked him if he got the message i left him
he informed me that he had lost his phone!
but he was going to his friends' house in a bit and he thoght it might be there
so yeah....i d/k
i told him to call me as soon as he could
of course i havent gotten a call since then..
and i dont know what our deal is
his myspace says he's in a relationship
and im still #1 on his top 8
but who knows how much you can trust mysapce right??
yeah..i d/k and neither does anyone else
BECAUSE I HAVENT SEEN HIM OR TALKED TO HIM!
im so stuck!
and i've cried every day
i miss him so much..but i cant be with someone that does some of the things he does
but im in love with im!
i dont kow what to do anymore and its messing me up!
and friday i went to rachel's house and made some friends from south
and one of the guys, Brent, had seen pics of me and thoght i was hot
he's cute too..but im like..stuck!!!
and we hung out..and hes reeeally cool
but if ryan and i broke up..i dont know if i can do this relationship thing again
i've been hurt too many times and i just keep letting it happen
AHHHHHHHHH im going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the other night was sooo fun! but like.........
i dont know what to do
things keep getting messed up
and i dont know if im in or out of a relationship
its like
"the post oh my gosh what have i done limbo after a break up"
--the OC
yeah that is deff. true for me..
oh yeah..and im gaining weight..for surely gaining weight
enogh that im deff. noticing it
and its not even cool.
i dont know...its messed up