so ryan isn't talking to me

[caylawithac]

i remember those amazing times with ryan
they were so fantastic
he was the best thing in my freeking life
now we've gone to not even talking

not me, him!
i dont know what is with him..
its been a week since we've seen each other
he said he still wants to be in a relationship with me
BUT he's sure as hell not showing it..

i talked to him right before 5th per. today on the phone
i was like will you please come and see me after school?
please? and he didnt answer.
its like he doesnt like me..but he wont admit it or something
i dont know
im hella confused.
i just dont even know wtf to do....
accept pray. its the only way..
and its the only way for me to know that everything will be okay
i know it will...
i just dont know if it will with ryan and i
and that hurts.

people keep teling me to break up with him..
i dont know what to doooooooo
not because of what people say..
but because of how shitty this is all making me feel
fuck
i suck at maintaining happiness and good relationships
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
fucking kill me k?