.. realizing
last night..
hm how to explain,
lol and tonight should be even
CRAZIER, but hell its senior year
live it up right? haha..
anyways.
sooo here I go ramblin about stuff
nobody cares about. but this is how I get shit out.
so deal with it, or dont read it,
simple as that. and you'll probably realize my point
at the end.
So,
I've been friends with this guy for 8 years now?
I think it is...
&&
a year and a half of those 8 years we
dated.. we were inlove I guess you could say..
and yea I know you dont date someone you have bn friends
with for so long.. opps- we didnt care.
but,
I would have to tell you,
this boy was SO shy when I first met him.
but spending all those summers with him
he opened up..
then we dated and I knew him like nobody else did.
I sware I can still pick out what he'll do when I say
certain things.. or when he is mad I can tell. I know him well I guess.
but the thing is, we broke up in January and didnt talk until
well uh when katrina hit, things started getting better,
and friends was a maybe with us.
I thought if I could I would be there for him all the time,
I started to not worry about anything but if he was ok.
and that got me nowheres, sept back to my old feelings with him.
so things got shady and I guess we stopped tlkin..
actually he got a girlfriend and w/e,
then a month after that we are friends again..
its like we always get brough back to eachother.
now being friends? its weird bc everyone says
you cant do it.. it cant happen.
I guess If you want it bad enough you cna make it work.
I woke up this mornin and saw somthing,
that he is actually ok.
I dont need to worry about him making friends and meeting ppl
because he is actually doing pretty damn good out there in Ruston,
and that makes me happy. bc for so long I didnt think he would be ok..
bc of certain things that happened and he just isnt the type to be
talkative right away.. so here it is,
this morning I got this phone call and someone told me he got in a wreck and was killed,
and then I woke up.. but it felt SO real I sware bc idk it was just like my heart
stopped while I was sleeping.. and when I realized it was a dream I wanted to pick up my phone
and just call him to see if he was ok.
but he is,
without calling I know it. just somthing idk.
because he is such an awesome person,
and he is ok now. and I guess me realizing that this morning makes me think..
I can go a day without thinking how he is? because I dont. I always wonder about him,
I guess its bc we usta be so close and Idk what I'd do if somthing happen to him.
Idk a week ago we got into an argument and I was told to let go of what isnt there?
and when I think about it, I've let go of us being together but not us being friends.
I dont really care what anyone says, we can be friends.
I'm happy to say things will probably be ok with me from now on..
because realizing he is ok on his own, makes alot of difference in my life.
hmm lol idk w/e.. im just really happy for him
and how well he is doing.
butt i g/g clean, then SHOPPINGG!!
talk more later.
<3
hm how to explain,
lol and tonight should be even
CRAZIER, but hell its senior year
live it up right? haha..
anyways.
sooo here I go ramblin about stuff
nobody cares about. but this is how I get shit out.
so deal with it, or dont read it,
simple as that. and you'll probably realize my point
at the end.
So,
I've been friends with this guy for 8 years now?
I think it is...
&&
a year and a half of those 8 years we
dated.. we were inlove I guess you could say..
and yea I know you dont date someone you have bn friends
with for so long.. opps- we didnt care.
but,
I would have to tell you,
this boy was SO shy when I first met him.
but spending all those summers with him
he opened up..
then we dated and I knew him like nobody else did.
I sware I can still pick out what he'll do when I say
certain things.. or when he is mad I can tell. I know him well I guess.
but the thing is, we broke up in January and didnt talk until
well uh when katrina hit, things started getting better,
and friends was a maybe with us.
I thought if I could I would be there for him all the time,
I started to not worry about anything but if he was ok.
and that got me nowheres, sept back to my old feelings with him.
so things got shady and I guess we stopped tlkin..
actually he got a girlfriend and w/e,
then a month after that we are friends again..
its like we always get brough back to eachother.
now being friends? its weird bc everyone says
you cant do it.. it cant happen.
I guess If you want it bad enough you cna make it work.
I woke up this mornin and saw somthing,
that he is actually ok.
I dont need to worry about him making friends and meeting ppl
because he is actually doing pretty damn good out there in Ruston,
and that makes me happy. bc for so long I didnt think he would be ok..
bc of certain things that happened and he just isnt the type to be
talkative right away.. so here it is,
this morning I got this phone call and someone told me he got in a wreck and was killed,
and then I woke up.. but it felt SO real I sware bc idk it was just like my heart
stopped while I was sleeping.. and when I realized it was a dream I wanted to pick up my phone
and just call him to see if he was ok.
but he is,
without calling I know it. just somthing idk.
because he is such an awesome person,
and he is ok now. and I guess me realizing that this morning makes me think..
I can go a day without thinking how he is? because I dont. I always wonder about him,
I guess its bc we usta be so close and Idk what I'd do if somthing happen to him.
Idk a week ago we got into an argument and I was told to let go of what isnt there?
and when I think about it, I've let go of us being together but not us being friends.
I dont really care what anyone says, we can be friends.
I'm happy to say things will probably be ok with me from now on..
because realizing he is ok on his own, makes alot of difference in my life.
hmm lol idk w/e.. im just really happy for him
and how well he is doing.
butt i g/g clean, then SHOPPINGG!!
talk more later.
<3