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Well its been quite a year I must say the least. Things have happened. I actually dont even know what to write down but I need a change in my life.
Things on the brain:
I am the skiniest I have ever been in my life. A heathy skinny. I want to stay this way because I am happy. Well I have never really thought that I am fat or anything like that been I am happy with the way my body looks and I am seriously considering joining a gym and taking some classes there to keep it up. I love to feel fit. Knowing I can run 5 miles and not get tired makes me happy. Im thinking about a yoga class even though I didnt like it when I tried it a few years back. However I am very stressed too. I have had a terrible week. Just everything that could have gone wrong went wroung and monday I was sure that I was going to have an anxiety attach by the end of the week. Im feeling better though. Even though I forgot my cleats and shin gaurds. Thank goodness Sara and Caitlin let me borrow there stuff. I like Caits cleats if they were a little smaller they would have been a good fit. But of course cleats are suppose to be two sizes to small when you get them. I got a lot of playing time and I hope that I surprise my coach. I havent been able to show him my skills besides in practice. And I got a good chunk of playing time. It might be to little to late but knowing that we lost and people still came up to me and said good job makes me happy. Julie (goalie) Finominal goalie told me that I pulled skills she didnt know that I had in me. :). Soccer is almost over and I want another job to further my experience. I love my dogs at ygrr dont get me wrong but I neeed more experience if I am to get anywhere in life. ygrr is a standstill for me and I cant go up from there.
Im looking at zoology schools in NY and PA. Im hoping that I will get to see Beth in the near future. Id like to spend a weekend with Emily in NY and a weekend with beth in PA. Maybe Ill gettt gutsie and go visit my cousin Maria in Indiana. Ive really never spent time with her but maybe there is a school out there for me. I love New England dearly but its time for a real change. I need to step it up a bit. I was just about to type I need to be away from my family and I want to know that I can make it on my own but I can cross that off my list because I have already occomplished that by going to Disney.
Lately Ive been wanting to go out to N. Cali. I never thought that I would ever want to go there but I do now. I would really like to go to Alaska and Montanna. I feel as though I have a new apreciation for nature. its so beautiful. I appreciate the scenery so much more than I ever have. One of my favorite things to do is when Im on the mass pike. I look up at the sky. The sky being my main focus...I realize how small I really am in the world and how nature is so much bigger than we ever realize. I appreciate it being there. its realaxing. I need a hammock. That would just complete it for me.
Let me tell you about my perfect day that I had.
It was beautiful out. I went up to Montgomery early in the morning. There were blue skies and white clouds. Red orange and yellow trees. Family. We went for a few walks that day. The smell of the trees was just amazing. The trees flowing in the wind. I felt like I was in a picutre. We made a chicken dinner and apple pie. The smell of it when i opened the oven was amazing. It was just perfect.
I think Ill end it there. on a good note...No a happy note. :)
I hope that you all are well and maybe I will see you sometime...for old time sakes.
Things on the brain:
I am the skiniest I have ever been in my life. A heathy skinny. I want to stay this way because I am happy. Well I have never really thought that I am fat or anything like that been I am happy with the way my body looks and I am seriously considering joining a gym and taking some classes there to keep it up. I love to feel fit. Knowing I can run 5 miles and not get tired makes me happy. Im thinking about a yoga class even though I didnt like it when I tried it a few years back. However I am very stressed too. I have had a terrible week. Just everything that could have gone wrong went wroung and monday I was sure that I was going to have an anxiety attach by the end of the week. Im feeling better though. Even though I forgot my cleats and shin gaurds. Thank goodness Sara and Caitlin let me borrow there stuff. I like Caits cleats if they were a little smaller they would have been a good fit. But of course cleats are suppose to be two sizes to small when you get them. I got a lot of playing time and I hope that I surprise my coach. I havent been able to show him my skills besides in practice. And I got a good chunk of playing time. It might be to little to late but knowing that we lost and people still came up to me and said good job makes me happy. Julie (goalie) Finominal goalie told me that I pulled skills she didnt know that I had in me. :). Soccer is almost over and I want another job to further my experience. I love my dogs at ygrr dont get me wrong but I neeed more experience if I am to get anywhere in life. ygrr is a standstill for me and I cant go up from there.
Im looking at zoology schools in NY and PA. Im hoping that I will get to see Beth in the near future. Id like to spend a weekend with Emily in NY and a weekend with beth in PA. Maybe Ill gettt gutsie and go visit my cousin Maria in Indiana. Ive really never spent time with her but maybe there is a school out there for me. I love New England dearly but its time for a real change. I need to step it up a bit. I was just about to type I need to be away from my family and I want to know that I can make it on my own but I can cross that off my list because I have already occomplished that by going to Disney.
Lately Ive been wanting to go out to N. Cali. I never thought that I would ever want to go there but I do now. I would really like to go to Alaska and Montanna. I feel as though I have a new apreciation for nature. its so beautiful. I appreciate the scenery so much more than I ever have. One of my favorite things to do is when Im on the mass pike. I look up at the sky. The sky being my main focus...I realize how small I really am in the world and how nature is so much bigger than we ever realize. I appreciate it being there. its realaxing. I need a hammock. That would just complete it for me.
Let me tell you about my perfect day that I had.
It was beautiful out. I went up to Montgomery early in the morning. There were blue skies and white clouds. Red orange and yellow trees. Family. We went for a few walks that day. The smell of the trees was just amazing. The trees flowing in the wind. I felt like I was in a picutre. We made a chicken dinner and apple pie. The smell of it when i opened the oven was amazing. It was just perfect.
I think Ill end it there. on a good note...No a happy note. :)
I hope that you all are well and maybe I will see you sometime...for old time sakes.