Staying alive
Ha - ha - ha - ha
staying allliiiiiiiive
Lord knows why I wake up with the strangest things running in my head (yesterday it was waking up thinking I got shot. Go figure)
In the grand scheme of things, it is the way you loved NO MATTER WHAT that will shape your life. It is also the way people remember you, and what you had to say about other people that is indicative of the way you lived. Most especially those who invested in you regardless of when you were being difficult, demanding, unfair and childish.
I'm learning about this NO MATTER WHAT business. I'm not great at it but I know its much better now than it used to be. It has taught me patience, and waiting for people to forgive me back completely is another exercise too. Whether or not I really did anything wrong. And ESPECIALLY if I did something wrong - I wait, as long as it takes, and I say sorry and mean it. I always mean it. I've learned that in relationships "right" and "wrong" are relative. So let's not look at that - instead lets try to see what people are NOT saying but really mean behind their actions. I always make sure to forget once I forgive, and I'd like to say THAT is something easy for me.
When I'm hurt by someone, I have a tough time being okay around them. Who does? You'll know by my distance and the fact that I barely share anything personal with you. But I don't get that way with people just like that. Its always a compounded, cumulative thing, backed up by fact and evidence that I myself have been witness to. And if the person is extra difficult (like you know they'll make things worse by trying to talk to them about it. Or in fact, they start changing the topic when you try to tell them) sometimes, being that stuck, I don't even try anymore. Damned if you do, damned if you don't. Yes?
What about you, how do YOU deal with people hurting you? Do you get confrontational? Or are you like me, turning to quiet and waiting for appropriate places and times to deal? No one way is the only way to get things fixed, I believe. We all have our own process. But ultimately I hope and pray that behind all of that is the intent to accept, move on, and love. Forgiveness is not about how you feel, who is wrong or right, but a statement of faith and a decision to side with peace and the knowledge that in God's eyes we are all the same. The point is to become more like Jesus, in every moment, in every way.
It is never easy, but its a wise choice regardless.
staying allliiiiiiiive
Lord knows why I wake up with the strangest things running in my head (yesterday it was waking up thinking I got shot. Go figure)
In the grand scheme of things, it is the way you loved NO MATTER WHAT that will shape your life. It is also the way people remember you, and what you had to say about other people that is indicative of the way you lived. Most especially those who invested in you regardless of when you were being difficult, demanding, unfair and childish.
I'm learning about this NO MATTER WHAT business. I'm not great at it but I know its much better now than it used to be. It has taught me patience, and waiting for people to forgive me back completely is another exercise too. Whether or not I really did anything wrong. And ESPECIALLY if I did something wrong - I wait, as long as it takes, and I say sorry and mean it. I always mean it. I've learned that in relationships "right" and "wrong" are relative. So let's not look at that - instead lets try to see what people are NOT saying but really mean behind their actions. I always make sure to forget once I forgive, and I'd like to say THAT is something easy for me.
When I'm hurt by someone, I have a tough time being okay around them. Who does? You'll know by my distance and the fact that I barely share anything personal with you. But I don't get that way with people just like that. Its always a compounded, cumulative thing, backed up by fact and evidence that I myself have been witness to. And if the person is extra difficult (like you know they'll make things worse by trying to talk to them about it. Or in fact, they start changing the topic when you try to tell them) sometimes, being that stuck, I don't even try anymore. Damned if you do, damned if you don't. Yes?
What about you, how do YOU deal with people hurting you? Do you get confrontational? Or are you like me, turning to quiet and waiting for appropriate places and times to deal? No one way is the only way to get things fixed, I believe. We all have our own process. But ultimately I hope and pray that behind all of that is the intent to accept, move on, and love. Forgiveness is not about how you feel, who is wrong or right, but a statement of faith and a decision to side with peace and the knowledge that in God's eyes we are all the same. The point is to become more like Jesus, in every moment, in every way.
It is never easy, but its a wise choice regardless.