Keep your heart clean.
That's what my Blackberry Messenger status is.
B messaged me that she really liked it and I told her that it was a reminder to me, to keep my life simple. Entanglements happen easy and do not necessarily make for a quality life.
I think about what that means in the context of what I want in the future, and where I hope to be. I need to prepare for that today, so I have worked hard to avoid any relationship drama - mostly because I want to save my energy and effort for when the time comes.
My friend Abby used cake as an analogy. (She's on a diet so I understand the choice of such. Ha!) Pretend your heart is the most glorious, delicious cake EVER. You've made sure it has the best ingredients, and is stored with protection and care because it is fragile. The fact alone that it is fragile means that it is valuable and precious.
You'd want to share that cake with someone who deserves it, right? Shallow pursuits or wrong relationships that you engage in entail you giving parts of that cake away to people who either won't appreciate it for what it is, or are unable to. Nevertheless, they are not the person for you. Do not do not do NOT dwell on a WHAT IF. That is uncertain and pointless, if you understand that there IS someone out there who is the right one. The person for you is someone who understands the care and the value of what it is you are handing to them. They are available, and open, and ready to receive you as you are. They can BUILD with you, today.
But if you keep giving pieces of yourself away, by the time the right person comes into your life, you will only have crumbs left. Or you'll be so tired from giving yourself away and getting hurt, that you wont be able to give the right way to that person who deserves it.
I don't want crumbs. And I know I won't be giving crumbs away. My heart is precious and peaceful, and whole. It knows what it beats for, and will not be satisfied with just any temporal gain. My greatest need has been filled already (God and salvation) and therefore I am free. Completely free to love extravagantly without any reservation.
I have released and cut soul ties out of my heart, completely washed away any influential memory of any ex, or residues of past relationships that did nothing but damage me, or me damage THEM. I've gone as far as throwing out photos, letters, clothing, and gifts that are connected to an ex. What good would they do my future relationship anyway? Am I gonna be sitting on a couch looking through old photos and talking about that with whomever I'm with? Would that be really honoring and loving of me? How does that build trust, honesty and a strong foundation?
And why would I be hanging on to residual feelings, when I know that I know that I KNOW, I have yet to experience the love of my life.
GOD KNOWS he is out there.
I understand fear and walls and pain. It is those same walls, though, that hinder us from exponentially growing and experiencing love. It is a trap, a prison we willingly walk into because of the past.
Admittedly, I have my own share of walls. Many of them are in place mostly because I know that I have to guard my heart. It is fragile and I refuse to keep it out on display for anyone to pick at. These walls aren't meant to keep love away. In fact, they are here so I can only let the right kind of love in, and keep lust, jealousy, insecurity out. It has nothing to do with being a sexual being, because I know I am. The full expression of that can only be seen and celebrated with the right man. Anything less is a waste.
My secret glances, soft smiles, ready supply of affection are locked away until that time when a man comes and asks for me to go off on an adventure with him. Because that's what I want. An adventure, with twists, turns, perhaps a bit of danger, and the opportunity to protect, care for, forgive, trust, heal, and LOVE that man.
So keep your heart clean. Keep your thoughts pure. Safeguard your love with everything you've got, believing that you are destined and called to experience the greatest love of your life. If you don't believe it yet, believe it now.
B messaged me that she really liked it and I told her that it was a reminder to me, to keep my life simple. Entanglements happen easy and do not necessarily make for a quality life.
I think about what that means in the context of what I want in the future, and where I hope to be. I need to prepare for that today, so I have worked hard to avoid any relationship drama - mostly because I want to save my energy and effort for when the time comes.
My friend Abby used cake as an analogy. (She's on a diet so I understand the choice of such. Ha!) Pretend your heart is the most glorious, delicious cake EVER. You've made sure it has the best ingredients, and is stored with protection and care because it is fragile. The fact alone that it is fragile means that it is valuable and precious.
You'd want to share that cake with someone who deserves it, right? Shallow pursuits or wrong relationships that you engage in entail you giving parts of that cake away to people who either won't appreciate it for what it is, or are unable to. Nevertheless, they are not the person for you. Do not do not do NOT dwell on a WHAT IF. That is uncertain and pointless, if you understand that there IS someone out there who is the right one. The person for you is someone who understands the care and the value of what it is you are handing to them. They are available, and open, and ready to receive you as you are. They can BUILD with you, today.
But if you keep giving pieces of yourself away, by the time the right person comes into your life, you will only have crumbs left. Or you'll be so tired from giving yourself away and getting hurt, that you wont be able to give the right way to that person who deserves it.
I don't want crumbs. And I know I won't be giving crumbs away. My heart is precious and peaceful, and whole. It knows what it beats for, and will not be satisfied with just any temporal gain. My greatest need has been filled already (God and salvation) and therefore I am free. Completely free to love extravagantly without any reservation.
I have released and cut soul ties out of my heart, completely washed away any influential memory of any ex, or residues of past relationships that did nothing but damage me, or me damage THEM. I've gone as far as throwing out photos, letters, clothing, and gifts that are connected to an ex. What good would they do my future relationship anyway? Am I gonna be sitting on a couch looking through old photos and talking about that with whomever I'm with? Would that be really honoring and loving of me? How does that build trust, honesty and a strong foundation?
And why would I be hanging on to residual feelings, when I know that I know that I KNOW, I have yet to experience the love of my life.
GOD KNOWS he is out there.
I understand fear and walls and pain. It is those same walls, though, that hinder us from exponentially growing and experiencing love. It is a trap, a prison we willingly walk into because of the past.
Admittedly, I have my own share of walls. Many of them are in place mostly because I know that I have to guard my heart. It is fragile and I refuse to keep it out on display for anyone to pick at. These walls aren't meant to keep love away. In fact, they are here so I can only let the right kind of love in, and keep lust, jealousy, insecurity out. It has nothing to do with being a sexual being, because I know I am. The full expression of that can only be seen and celebrated with the right man. Anything less is a waste.
My secret glances, soft smiles, ready supply of affection are locked away until that time when a man comes and asks for me to go off on an adventure with him. Because that's what I want. An adventure, with twists, turns, perhaps a bit of danger, and the opportunity to protect, care for, forgive, trust, heal, and LOVE that man.
So keep your heart clean. Keep your thoughts pure. Safeguard your love with everything you've got, believing that you are destined and called to experience the greatest love of your life. If you don't believe it yet, believe it now.