i was once an idiot, not too long ago...
well, today: saturday, july 23; was going pretty good except for one very important part!
my friend victor (yes, he's not part of BOD) asked if i wanted to go to dolphin mall, so i say "ok, i'll just ask my mom". my mom says it's ok, so i go. we walk around the mall while his mom, sister, and sisters friends watch movies. after walking some, we go to the theaters to play in the arcade. we play, i TRY to play DDR, blah blah blah, we go eat at johnny(?) rocket's. victor and i danced with the people that worked there. we order and the waitress apperently thought i was being real nice because when i was lookig for nickels to play a song she gave me two from her pocket. the total was $33.10 (between 3 people), so i go to her and tell her i'm paying her 10 cents back. i felt special because she smiled back at me.
so we walk around some more and end up going back to arcade. (the important part is coming up, please keep reading) there's this guy on DDR which was AWESOME, so i decide to watch him. girl 1 was sitting watching too, and she told me i was blocking some people's view. i get out of the way and she says i can sit in the chair next to her. i sit and we talk a little about how much we suck at DDR. girl 2 is playing DDR. i think to myself "hmm, i want to try again". i get my dollar out. girl 2 finishes. she starts talking with girl 1 (as you can see, i didn't get their names even). i ask girl 2 who's next because i want to try it out. she said she put in her dollar already so she would go after this guy that got on. "ok, i'll go after you". time passes, it's almost her turn and i get word from victor that we have to go. i ask girl 2 if i can go on with her, to save time, but she had to go too! weird. she told me i could use the credit she put in, but i told her about me having to go. so we say bye, and i start walking away. when we were by the escalator victor says "hey, why don't you give her your dollar to pay for the one she wasted". me thinking "why the hell didn't i think of that!" said it was a good idea, so i look back and i see her and her friend going down the stairs. i practically fly down the escalator, run through a huge mob of people, that came out of NOWHERE!, tap her on the shoulder and explain why i'm giving her this dollar. <> she says "no, it's fine" and i say.............."ok, bye then" ^(o.O)^ I TURN AROUND AND WALK AWAY!!! when i finally get in the car, i tell victor's mom about it, i regret not doing anything so say with a sad tone "what are the odds i'll see her again?" and she asks "why didn't you try to get a phone number then?" i told her that i'd rather leave it casual instead of asking and making it a bad meeting if she thought i was weird or something. then once again "why the hell didn't i think of that!" she tells me, "why leave it 'casual' and never see her again, instead of asking and maybe getting lucky?" ^(o.O)^
i've have had a revelation, and somehow i fell more confident about myself. but still, i couldn't stop thinking about "what if...?" and i hated myself because of the "what if...?". so i wrote this here to see if someone would actually care enough to read this about my life and troubles.
I LOVE YOU KAT!!!!!
my friend victor (yes, he's not part of BOD) asked if i wanted to go to dolphin mall, so i say "ok, i'll just ask my mom". my mom says it's ok, so i go. we walk around the mall while his mom, sister, and sisters friends watch movies. after walking some, we go to the theaters to play in the arcade. we play, i TRY to play DDR, blah blah blah, we go eat at johnny(?) rocket's. victor and i danced with the people that worked there. we order and the waitress apperently thought i was being real nice because when i was lookig for nickels to play a song she gave me two from her pocket. the total was $33.10 (between 3 people), so i go to her and tell her i'm paying her 10 cents back. i felt special because she smiled back at me.
so we walk around some more and end up going back to arcade. (the important part is coming up, please keep reading) there's this guy on DDR which was AWESOME, so i decide to watch him. girl 1 was sitting watching too, and she told me i was blocking some people's view. i get out of the way and she says i can sit in the chair next to her. i sit and we talk a little about how much we suck at DDR. girl 2 is playing DDR. i think to myself "hmm, i want to try again". i get my dollar out. girl 2 finishes. she starts talking with girl 1 (as you can see, i didn't get their names even). i ask girl 2 who's next because i want to try it out. she said she put in her dollar already so she would go after this guy that got on. "ok, i'll go after you". time passes, it's almost her turn and i get word from victor that we have to go. i ask girl 2 if i can go on with her, to save time, but she had to go too! weird. she told me i could use the credit she put in, but i told her about me having to go. so we say bye, and i start walking away. when we were by the escalator victor says "hey, why don't you give her your dollar to pay for the one she wasted". me thinking "why the hell didn't i think of that!" said it was a good idea, so i look back and i see her and her friend going down the stairs. i practically fly down the escalator, run through a huge mob of people, that came out of NOWHERE!, tap her on the shoulder and explain why i'm giving her this dollar. <> she says "no, it's fine" and i say.............."ok, bye then" ^(o.O)^ I TURN AROUND AND WALK AWAY!!! when i finally get in the car, i tell victor's mom about it, i regret not doing anything so say with a sad tone "what are the odds i'll see her again?" and she asks "why didn't you try to get a phone number then?" i told her that i'd rather leave it casual instead of asking and making it a bad meeting if she thought i was weird or something. then once again "why the hell didn't i think of that!" she tells me, "why leave it 'casual' and never see her again, instead of asking and maybe getting lucky?" ^(o.O)^
i've have had a revelation, and somehow i fell more confident about myself. but still, i couldn't stop thinking about "what if...?" and i hated myself because of the "what if...?". so i wrote this here to see if someone would actually care enough to read this about my life and troubles.
I LOVE YOU KAT!!!!!