Insomnia
... Nick commented on my last post. Some of his few last words ever inscribed over the Internet will now be eternally connected to my livejournal. Why was he looking at it after so many years? I'll never know but that's okay. I will always love him.
I'm in a weird transition in life now. For the past semester I've been in a paralyzing depression that dampened my energy and spirit. I blame this on finally realizing Nick's death, due to working less and having much more time to reflect on life. Also, I've been down due tO the progress of my addiction (per usual). Well, a couple of weeks ago I got fed up with my situation sO I did everything I could to change my external lifestyle factors to make it better. I quit cold turkey off my methadone programme (which I will delve into a different time), pampered myself, branches out with friends and men, etc. I guess these efforts worked for the most part but I'm not sure. I'm now in a complication once again, as I've fallen for a taken man. Ah well, it could be much much worse. I'm not used to the sober life. Dying from withdrawals and insomnia still, day 13.. I can't wait till this life is easier. <3
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I'm in a weird transition in life now. For the past semester I've been in a paralyzing depression that dampened my energy and spirit. I blame this on finally realizing Nick's death, due to working less and having much more time to reflect on life. Also, I've been down due tO the progress of my addiction (per usual). Well, a couple of weeks ago I got fed up with my situation sO I did everything I could to change my external lifestyle factors to make it better. I quit cold turkey off my methadone programme (which I will delve into a different time), pampered myself, branches out with friends and men, etc. I guess these efforts worked for the most part but I'm not sure. I'm now in a complication once again, as I've fallen for a taken man. Ah well, it could be much much worse. I'm not used to the sober life. Dying from withdrawals and insomnia still, day 13.. I can't wait till this life is easier. <3
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