When I read my mind starts drifting . . . I'll still be reading, but without acknowledging the meaning of any of the words. Within a few minutes I generally realize I'm not comprehending anything, but rather thinking of doing something else or even dreaming, if not hallucinating.
When I write a single paragraph this becomes a huge accomplishment, and I stare at the clock telling myself "get this done within forty-five minutes." I get it done, but it's more like 4-5 hours later.
I'll be tired, and I'll want to sleep . . . but I tell myself "just one more thing" and then it's 4am again.
I'll be uncomfortable doing something, or even relatively bored ( when I should be sleeping ) and so I'll search out food . . . over, and over again till I can't eat anymore.
I'm not sure what to do about this. I try to discipline my mind and control it, but it's hard. You know?
It sounds like you're stuck in what's called a negative reinforcement loop, which is when one does the same non-productive or destructive thing over and over again (mine is I check my email every 5 minutes regardless of whether I'm expecting something or not).
It's hard to stop but being aware that you're doing it is the first step. Then get up and do something else entirely different.
That's actually how I taught myself german. I didn't sleep for about 8 months and I had a book so there it went.
I hope you get some sun and feel better soon.
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I'm a bit worried that you might be.
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When I write a single paragraph this becomes a huge accomplishment, and I stare at the clock telling myself "get this done within forty-five minutes." I get it done, but it's more like 4-5 hours later.
I'll be tired, and I'll want to sleep . . . but I tell myself "just one more thing" and then it's 4am again.
I'll be uncomfortable doing something, or even relatively bored ( when I should be sleeping ) and so I'll search out food . . . over, and over again till I can't eat anymore.
I'm not sure what to do about this. I try to discipline my mind and control it, but it's hard. You know?
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It's hard to stop but being aware that you're doing it is the first step. Then get up and do something else entirely different.
That's actually how I taught myself german. I didn't sleep for about 8 months and I had a book so there it went.
Maybe learn Chinese or something...
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