It's over.
That's it.
I guess this is where I'm supposed to bitch and vent about all of the feelings I should be having, but strangely, and honestly, I'm pretty numb about it.
I was the crazy one, the controlling one, the angry one.....sure.
But I am hopeful about what this new year will bring, and eager to mark self-improvements off of my long list this year. I have never really spent an extended amount of time alone, which is obviously one of my many flaws, but I do look forward to the idea. It can't be any lonelier than the relationship I was in.
Too easy to look for a replacement, or try to find someone "who's right for me" ... it's just a band-aid. After talking with a friend last night, I realized that even though everyone has their own shit that they should deal with first before burdening the other with it, "you just can't be with someone when your shits clash" - haha well put Michelle :) and our shits did clash. I take responsibility for my faults, my shit. I was overbearing, and I said some fucking mean, terrible things behind closed doors. I pushed too hard and maybe wasn't understanding enough, but overall this epic, monumental soul-mate expectation was something neither one of us could live up to. Sad, really sad.
Goodbye 2007. I'm numb.
Hello 2008. Cheer up.