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Well, I have a headache I can't kick... so I guess it is ok..
Pray for me or whatever it is you do.
I call the doc tomorrow.
I have a fleshy growth in my mouth. i'm gonna get an appointment to get it checked.
It freaks me out a little.
I was telling my grandma about it and she had to go and say my worse fear... "you think it could be cancer?"
Ok a little history
(My best friend in the 6th grade got bone cancer. The lump was in her mouth... but on the bone unlike mine... still it was very similar looking. She died in the 8th grade. plus most everyone knows about my mom... well)
So I was singing to Reuben goodnight, and I was looking at him smiling at me. His eyes were dancing and my heart jumped... I had that thought... I wonder what my mom was thinking and feeling about us when she knew she was dying. I just can't leave my kids... oh god it takes m,y breath away to think about it... but I tell you what it makes me damn sure appreciate my time with them. I want to soak up every minute, but I also want my kids to know me... there is so much I can't remember.... and oh there is so much more...
be quiet brain.
Well, I have a headache I can't kick... so I guess it is ok..
Pray for me or whatever it is you do.
I call the doc tomorrow.
I have a fleshy growth in my mouth. i'm gonna get an appointment to get it checked.
It freaks me out a little.
I was telling my grandma about it and she had to go and say my worse fear... "you think it could be cancer?"
Ok a little history
(My best friend in the 6th grade got bone cancer. The lump was in her mouth... but on the bone unlike mine... still it was very similar looking. She died in the 8th grade. plus most everyone knows about my mom... well)
So I was singing to Reuben goodnight, and I was looking at him smiling at me. His eyes were dancing and my heart jumped... I had that thought... I wonder what my mom was thinking and feeling about us when she knew she was dying. I just can't leave my kids... oh god it takes m,y breath away to think about it... but I tell you what it makes me damn sure appreciate my time with them. I want to soak up every minute, but I also want my kids to know me... there is so much I can't remember.... and oh there is so much more...
be quiet brain.