shitty day, even shittier week
okay, so maybe i do have issues. i can't think straight anymore. it's like there's this huge cloud in my head and everytime i try to focus on something it just kinda blows over there to cover it. i'm losing feelings for everything. it's almost like i don't even care about anything anymore. i'm sure i care about things, like i know i care about angel. and chris. but half the time i just feel numb to everything. and a good friend pointed out to me that maybe that's why i drink. but drinking only makes me more numb. and it makes me forget that i have no feelings. but i cant go talk to people because i feel like i'm in a big empty room and nobody gets it. yeah sure, you're not alone... still feels like it. always will. confused now. no words, all jumbled. shutting up...