i wanna hold you. protect you from all of the things i've already endured
stress sucks. and this past week was way stressful. first, i have to get the last of the divorce papers all filled out and signed and filed...you think HE would help? hell no! instead, he turned into the hugest asshole ever! of course. that's cuz he has a new slut and he thinks he's king of the world. so anyhow, i spend hours on the papers making sure EVERYthing is done, and i finally got it filed...should be over by the end of the month! can't wait to be owens again!
next...well...chris was an asshole, being a dick to me every chance he got...and for no reason. i ask him a question, and i get yelled at senselessly. he doesn't even think before he talks because what he says never makes any sense. whatever
#3 worked a lot of hours...a lot! but hey, it's money right?
cuatro - got in a fight with brion. all my fault. but we made up :) i love him!
then...i get a call from my mom that my uncle andy only has about a week left. that sucks! he's had lou gehrigs disease for the past year and a half, slowly getting worse, and now it's time for him to go...leave his wife, kids...how do you cope with that?
so by saturday i'm pretty emotionally worn out. can't even think straight...don't know what i'm feeling or why...so i broke down. which made my heart freak out...AGAIN...and at 1 in the mornin on sunday, i'm out walkin laps around the greens at my apt...a total of 8 laps, the first 4 by myself with some creepy guy talkin to me each time i passed his backyard area...then jason and brion came out, pretty much drunk, and followed me...my brother skipping...verrry funny. so i started feeling better, and i talked to brion who helped me figure out what was wrong...and like always, made all the sadness and stress go away. i don't know how he does it, but he sure is great at it. i love him so much. i love how i can talk to him about anything and everything. i've never been this close to any man, its so wonderful. *sigh* and in just a few more weeks i'll be living by him. yay! i can't wait!!!
so for now, the stress is gone. i am supremely happy! and it's great! but i'm slowly starting to worry about the trip to cali for the funeral. it's coming soon, just don't know when. i guess it's easier when you know they don't have much time left than it is if they just pass without any warning. it's still horrible tho and it hurts alot. i'm scared to go to the funeral, but i need to be there for my mom. it's hard on her to lose another brother. i can't imagine losing my brother...scooter was hard enough, it's hard everyday, and he was only my friend brother...man...
ok, nuff of that sadness...back to me having a good night. hasta!
next...well...chris was an asshole, being a dick to me every chance he got...and for no reason. i ask him a question, and i get yelled at senselessly. he doesn't even think before he talks because what he says never makes any sense. whatever
#3 worked a lot of hours...a lot! but hey, it's money right?
cuatro - got in a fight with brion. all my fault. but we made up :) i love him!
then...i get a call from my mom that my uncle andy only has about a week left. that sucks! he's had lou gehrigs disease for the past year and a half, slowly getting worse, and now it's time for him to go...leave his wife, kids...how do you cope with that?
so by saturday i'm pretty emotionally worn out. can't even think straight...don't know what i'm feeling or why...so i broke down. which made my heart freak out...AGAIN...and at 1 in the mornin on sunday, i'm out walkin laps around the greens at my apt...a total of 8 laps, the first 4 by myself with some creepy guy talkin to me each time i passed his backyard area...then jason and brion came out, pretty much drunk, and followed me...my brother skipping...verrry funny. so i started feeling better, and i talked to brion who helped me figure out what was wrong...and like always, made all the sadness and stress go away. i don't know how he does it, but he sure is great at it. i love him so much. i love how i can talk to him about anything and everything. i've never been this close to any man, its so wonderful. *sigh* and in just a few more weeks i'll be living by him. yay! i can't wait!!!
so for now, the stress is gone. i am supremely happy! and it's great! but i'm slowly starting to worry about the trip to cali for the funeral. it's coming soon, just don't know when. i guess it's easier when you know they don't have much time left than it is if they just pass without any warning. it's still horrible tho and it hurts alot. i'm scared to go to the funeral, but i need to be there for my mom. it's hard on her to lose another brother. i can't imagine losing my brother...scooter was hard enough, it's hard everyday, and he was only my friend brother...man...
ok, nuff of that sadness...back to me having a good night. hasta!