Leaving Again and New Layout
somehow it's much harder leaving home this time than it was when I first left for London in September. I would think it would have been harder then, going out into the uncertainty of moving to another country and starting this new life. But I remember back then I was just so excited to be finally going and there wasn't much sadness at all.
But now I've been holding back tears almost all day. I cried in the car after I'd said goodbye to my dad earlier. I don't know if I'll be able to be cool tomorrow at the airport when I have to say bye to mom.
Maybe it's because at first I was only leaving for three months because I knew I'd be coming home for Christmas. But now I'm going away for 9-10 months without a visit home. And that just seems like such a long time to be away from home. Away from mom and everyone.
I'm sure I'll be fine tomorrow when I'm back in London but right now I don't really want to leave. I want to stay at home. I feel like these three weeks weren't enough.
At least mom is thinking about coming for a visit in the end of May or beginning of June. That's something to look forward to!
Also, I have a new layout, causette. I've had the same layout since early 2007 and I never thought I'd change my Sam layout but I light of my new passion, I felt like I needed something that represented me here and right now. I'll then change my info page later. I then want to remove most of my fandom icons and replace them with some non-fandom icons but I don't know if I'll be able to use other peoples icons since I've mostly always just used icons by me. But we'll see. Although I wont change my mood theme. I'm too damn proud of that mood theme to change it to something else!
Times certainly are changing. Here's hoping 2011 will be amazing!
But now I've been holding back tears almost all day. I cried in the car after I'd said goodbye to my dad earlier. I don't know if I'll be able to be cool tomorrow at the airport when I have to say bye to mom.
Maybe it's because at first I was only leaving for three months because I knew I'd be coming home for Christmas. But now I'm going away for 9-10 months without a visit home. And that just seems like such a long time to be away from home. Away from mom and everyone.
I'm sure I'll be fine tomorrow when I'm back in London but right now I don't really want to leave. I want to stay at home. I feel like these three weeks weren't enough.
At least mom is thinking about coming for a visit in the end of May or beginning of June. That's something to look forward to!
Also, I have a new layout, causette. I've had the same layout since early 2007 and I never thought I'd change my Sam layout but I light of my new passion, I felt like I needed something that represented me here and right now. I'll then change my info page later. I then want to remove most of my fandom icons and replace them with some non-fandom icons but I don't know if I'll be able to use other peoples icons since I've mostly always just used icons by me. But we'll see. Although I wont change my mood theme. I'm too damn proud of that mood theme to change it to something else!
Times certainly are changing. Here's hoping 2011 will be amazing!