Everything is lining up~
In a few weeks we start back, and these are the last classes that I will be taking! YES GRADUATION!
(technically, my summer internship will be my last class, but it's not really a class, it just...counts. THEN GRADUATION!)
Gonna go apartment hunting next week, since it's a bit far from where I currently am. Think I found a good place that'll do 3month leases. I am so excited~
Also really relieved that the rent doesn't go up as badly as I was afraid it would for just a 3mo least ;-;
Prices are bad enough in this town as it is.
I need to meet with my old roommate soon, and we need to get plane tickets! I can't believe I'm doing this still, but I'm so excited for the concert~
Amber's a middle school teacher, so she gets a break about when I do, and right before the concert, so she is gonna join me to Japan! I'll be very glad for the extra company~
And I can't wait to travel Japan with her.
I managed to mostly knock my weekly food budget to $50-60 a week, and after last month's paycheck, I have enough to be able to comfortably go to Japan!
Gonna throw a little extra at it anyway, for the next few months I'll be working on campus, try to keep up this budget, and if it doesn't get spent, back into savings it will go. Plus, this internship pays really well, and even if it's just three months, I should be able to put away enough back into an emergency savings space to make me comfortable again.
I really, really can't believe how well everything's coming together. I've been so afraid last semester, and had no idea what I was doing, only that the career fairs were scaring the shit out of me, because no-one but ONE place that I talked to had a decent employment option. If they hadn't hired me, I really don't know what I would be doing (...a non paid internship doing sales, while resenting higher education, and the lies of the great opportunities it gets you? most likely.)
I think it'll turn into a full time position, too, so... I'm just so relieved.
I could cry.
Even if it doesn't, I think I'll move back in with my parents for a bit, and work at a telemarketing company that just opened up down here for maybe a few months, just be saving as much as possible, and then start job searching again.
I've got a 4 hour interview behind my belt now, and I didn't die, so... Eh, job hunting again scares me, regardless, actually. I really, really, really hope this internship turns full time (last year's interns were all offered jobs! It is promising, at least)
That was really, really terrible.
That mixed with throwing a bunch of money to see a concert...seemed like bad timing, but I've made it work! And I got tickets (I owe someone so much, they helped me out a lot!), goodness it seems like this isn't all actually happening.
I was so afraid that this was going to ruin my financials--and it isn't good, but I'm not afraid that I won't be able to recover it anymore, either.
I've got a legit internship, guys. A business analyst internship with a huge insurance company, that is actually paying what the job should be--plus extra to help with housing that'll keep me from having to double pay rent, since my currently least won't run out until July, and it's going to cover the extra two months of rent where I'll have that apartment, and one by the internship.
I spend months last semester going through positions, and talking with so many companies--and they all ranged from "nope, total scam" to "eh...sales. Again. but, this one at least pays?" and it just made me so angry that this is what we get after so much money and time and stress spent at college.
To get a shitty sales position. One of them has still been calling me, though. And while it is sales, it's business to business, at least.
My resume got thrown out though, lol, because they want you to have another semester after the internship, for some reason, so I graduate to early to be considered. But she said they would likely have a full time position by that point, so I'm gonna keep in contact. Hopefully that'll be a good backup.
I really, really lucked out with this though. (and my problem with sleep paralysis hallucinations has gotten better! yay!)
I can see an end to all of this now. It still feels like I've wasted my life with college, and with what it's put me through, and how little I've actually benefited, it CAN'T be worth it. But I'm not regretting it so much anymore, and I know there's not really another choice.
It just doesn't seem as pointless anymore, and I'm really glad. I've not felt hope like this in a while.
(technically, my summer internship will be my last class, but it's not really a class, it just...counts. THEN GRADUATION!)
Gonna go apartment hunting next week, since it's a bit far from where I currently am. Think I found a good place that'll do 3month leases. I am so excited~
Also really relieved that the rent doesn't go up as badly as I was afraid it would for just a 3mo least ;-;
Prices are bad enough in this town as it is.
I need to meet with my old roommate soon, and we need to get plane tickets! I can't believe I'm doing this still, but I'm so excited for the concert~
Amber's a middle school teacher, so she gets a break about when I do, and right before the concert, so she is gonna join me to Japan! I'll be very glad for the extra company~
And I can't wait to travel Japan with her.
I managed to mostly knock my weekly food budget to $50-60 a week, and after last month's paycheck, I have enough to be able to comfortably go to Japan!
Gonna throw a little extra at it anyway, for the next few months I'll be working on campus, try to keep up this budget, and if it doesn't get spent, back into savings it will go. Plus, this internship pays really well, and even if it's just three months, I should be able to put away enough back into an emergency savings space to make me comfortable again.
I really, really can't believe how well everything's coming together. I've been so afraid last semester, and had no idea what I was doing, only that the career fairs were scaring the shit out of me, because no-one but ONE place that I talked to had a decent employment option. If they hadn't hired me, I really don't know what I would be doing (...a non paid internship doing sales, while resenting higher education, and the lies of the great opportunities it gets you? most likely.)
I think it'll turn into a full time position, too, so... I'm just so relieved.
I could cry.
Even if it doesn't, I think I'll move back in with my parents for a bit, and work at a telemarketing company that just opened up down here for maybe a few months, just be saving as much as possible, and then start job searching again.
I've got a 4 hour interview behind my belt now, and I didn't die, so... Eh, job hunting again scares me, regardless, actually. I really, really, really hope this internship turns full time (last year's interns were all offered jobs! It is promising, at least)
That was really, really terrible.
That mixed with throwing a bunch of money to see a concert...seemed like bad timing, but I've made it work! And I got tickets (I owe someone so much, they helped me out a lot!), goodness it seems like this isn't all actually happening.
I was so afraid that this was going to ruin my financials--and it isn't good, but I'm not afraid that I won't be able to recover it anymore, either.
I've got a legit internship, guys. A business analyst internship with a huge insurance company, that is actually paying what the job should be--plus extra to help with housing that'll keep me from having to double pay rent, since my currently least won't run out until July, and it's going to cover the extra two months of rent where I'll have that apartment, and one by the internship.
I spend months last semester going through positions, and talking with so many companies--and they all ranged from "nope, total scam" to "eh...sales. Again. but, this one at least pays?" and it just made me so angry that this is what we get after so much money and time and stress spent at college.
To get a shitty sales position. One of them has still been calling me, though. And while it is sales, it's business to business, at least.
My resume got thrown out though, lol, because they want you to have another semester after the internship, for some reason, so I graduate to early to be considered. But she said they would likely have a full time position by that point, so I'm gonna keep in contact. Hopefully that'll be a good backup.
I really, really lucked out with this though. (and my problem with sleep paralysis hallucinations has gotten better! yay!)
I can see an end to all of this now. It still feels like I've wasted my life with college, and with what it's put me through, and how little I've actually benefited, it CAN'T be worth it. But I'm not regretting it so much anymore, and I know there's not really another choice.
It just doesn't seem as pointless anymore, and I'm really glad. I've not felt hope like this in a while.