So this is the new year...And i don't feel any differnt
I wish i could've been kissing Kyla at midnight instead of a pot-filled pipe. There's not much i could do to change that, though.
I spent last night hanging out with Ashley and Jenny. It was fun, although Jenny was sick. Ashley and I smoked like six bowls between us (not all at the same time). Then we lit off fireworks. Minnesota's lame and doesn't allow real fireworks, so there was little chance Ashley and I could hurt each other, or ourselves while intoxicated. It was SOOO cold out. My fingers went numb quite quickly, but it was worth the neat fireworks display Ashley let me watch. I didn't do much of the lighting, but when i did, that was fun, too.
When we were all done with that we watched Dodgeball. YOu know, it could've been the best movie in the world, but i don't remember a freaking thing. NOT ONE! I don't even remeber why they had to play dogdeball or why they wanted to play dodgeball. So, when i watch it with Kyla, hopefully tonight, it'll be like seeing it anew.
Oh, and Then Ring is terrifying when you're stoned - rent it.
I spent a good portion of time freaking out about my mom last night. How insane she's getting, how much i've witnessed her deteriortion, how bad i feel for her. The latter part of the sentance is new to me. I actually feel bad for her. I don't know why... Probably because she started a small fire in the basement to keep warm at night and thought that was something resonable. That's how INSANE she is. And that's why I have empathy for her. Ugh, i don't know how to describe my feelings for my mother any more and when i try, the word "pitty" makes an apperance... That's kind of horrible, i know.
I just remember freaking out on the couch to ashley last night (I was really high) and she was just like it's funny and sad. I remember her laughing, too. It hurt my feelings, but she was stoned so the funny did over ride with her being high. I forgive her for any indescretions at that point in time.
I felt bad, cos i left Ashley up all by her self to watch "Wimbeldon" but I was SOO tired. Ashley never gets tired, it seems. So, now she's asleep on the couch and I have to get her up in about five minutes.
Kyla, one of these days I'll get to kiss you at midnight and it'll be everything I've ever dreamed it to be. <3
I spent last night hanging out with Ashley and Jenny. It was fun, although Jenny was sick. Ashley and I smoked like six bowls between us (not all at the same time). Then we lit off fireworks. Minnesota's lame and doesn't allow real fireworks, so there was little chance Ashley and I could hurt each other, or ourselves while intoxicated. It was SOOO cold out. My fingers went numb quite quickly, but it was worth the neat fireworks display Ashley let me watch. I didn't do much of the lighting, but when i did, that was fun, too.
When we were all done with that we watched Dodgeball. YOu know, it could've been the best movie in the world, but i don't remember a freaking thing. NOT ONE! I don't even remeber why they had to play dogdeball or why they wanted to play dodgeball. So, when i watch it with Kyla, hopefully tonight, it'll be like seeing it anew.
Oh, and Then Ring is terrifying when you're stoned - rent it.
I spent a good portion of time freaking out about my mom last night. How insane she's getting, how much i've witnessed her deteriortion, how bad i feel for her. The latter part of the sentance is new to me. I actually feel bad for her. I don't know why... Probably because she started a small fire in the basement to keep warm at night and thought that was something resonable. That's how INSANE she is. And that's why I have empathy for her. Ugh, i don't know how to describe my feelings for my mother any more and when i try, the word "pitty" makes an apperance... That's kind of horrible, i know.
I just remember freaking out on the couch to ashley last night (I was really high) and she was just like it's funny and sad. I remember her laughing, too. It hurt my feelings, but she was stoned so the funny did over ride with her being high. I forgive her for any indescretions at that point in time.
I felt bad, cos i left Ashley up all by her self to watch "Wimbeldon" but I was SOO tired. Ashley never gets tired, it seems. So, now she's asleep on the couch and I have to get her up in about five minutes.
Kyla, one of these days I'll get to kiss you at midnight and it'll be everything I've ever dreamed it to be. <3