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he makes me happy.
even if we don't have sex,
that's not a problem.
i understand.
i was pretty much in debt and getting more and more
into debt until my dad got on my ass and is now helping me out.
which makes me feel bad because now i owe him even more.
my last paycheck was $16.12. whatafuckinjoke.
i'm quitting this fucking job and finding a new one.
if anyone in my area hears something
please let me know. i need a new job.
preferably something in retail or waitressing
(even though waitressing would probably suck just as much as
my current job. meh.)
wedding daze is an excellent movie
and describes doug and my relationship exactly.
not.even.kidding.
crazy.
i miss him. :/
i almost told him that i saw george today
but he had to get off and keep working.
i told myself that it would be okay whenever
george came around but it's not. it's not it's not it's not.
i can talk to him and i can tolerate him but
these weird feelings keep boiling up.
i came home and cried. i guess.
i hate that i am like this.
i don't love him. i don't need to prove that either.
i just, i want to forget him you know? and as soon as
i don't have to think about seeing him, BAM~! there he is.
whatever. i do hope him the best in life.
he's going to need it with the family he has on the way.
i hope he and katie get through this together.
i'm not going to talk shit.
i have no place and frankly if they're happy then more power to them.
i've fallen in love with another song.
"the special two" by missy higgins.
she's amazing.
it's kind of scary, having someone to be a major part of my life again.
it will be okay. and it's not the end if it isn't okay,
but i have a feeling it will be okay. ♥
on a side note,
i love my violin.
i love the sounds she makes.
i must pee.
goodnight, everyone and sweet dreams
that drift you off to the lands where you want to be
where you belong and to rise and wake to a morning
that is as beautiful as each of your souls.
because you are all beautiful.
really.
even if you and i are strangers:
there's a reason we have come across paths.
to stalk each others lj, dur :]
(note: i am not good at expressing emotions yay.)
end.
even if we don't have sex,
that's not a problem.
i understand.
i was pretty much in debt and getting more and more
into debt until my dad got on my ass and is now helping me out.
which makes me feel bad because now i owe him even more.
my last paycheck was $16.12. whatafuckinjoke.
i'm quitting this fucking job and finding a new one.
if anyone in my area hears something
please let me know. i need a new job.
preferably something in retail or waitressing
(even though waitressing would probably suck just as much as
my current job. meh.)
wedding daze is an excellent movie
and describes doug and my relationship exactly.
not.even.kidding.
crazy.
i miss him. :/
i almost told him that i saw george today
but he had to get off and keep working.
i told myself that it would be okay whenever
george came around but it's not. it's not it's not it's not.
i can talk to him and i can tolerate him but
these weird feelings keep boiling up.
i came home and cried. i guess.
i hate that i am like this.
i don't love him. i don't need to prove that either.
i just, i want to forget him you know? and as soon as
i don't have to think about seeing him, BAM~! there he is.
whatever. i do hope him the best in life.
he's going to need it with the family he has on the way.
i hope he and katie get through this together.
i'm not going to talk shit.
i have no place and frankly if they're happy then more power to them.
i've fallen in love with another song.
"the special two" by missy higgins.
she's amazing.
it's kind of scary, having someone to be a major part of my life again.
it will be okay. and it's not the end if it isn't okay,
but i have a feeling it will be okay. ♥
on a side note,
i love my violin.
i love the sounds she makes.
i must pee.
goodnight, everyone and sweet dreams
that drift you off to the lands where you want to be
where you belong and to rise and wake to a morning
that is as beautiful as each of your souls.
because you are all beautiful.
really.
even if you and i are strangers:
there's a reason we have come across paths.
to stalk each others lj, dur :]
(note: i am not good at expressing emotions yay.)
end.