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So my sister says she can’t go to the funeral. I’ve realized that my fucking credit card is not as paid off as I thought it was and my funds are low. I broke down and asked my dad if I could borrow some money for the trip and he says he can’t afford it while reassuring me that I didn’t have to go. And my Aunt sent me a text telling me that even if my sister can’t go that Grandpa would be pleased to see me. My cousin called me for the first time in months to say he hopes to see me there.
And I don’t think I can do this by myself. I can’t excuse the spending for just me and I have no one to talk to who isn’t family and already upset about the loss. I have no friends and no idea what to do. I’m tired even though I’ve been sleeping far to much this week and my appetite sucks and I just don’t know what to do anymore.
EDIT: I ended up doing what was best for me and bought tickets. Now to just finish packing and see if sister can take me to and from the airport or if I have to drive myself. Thanks to those lovely people who have already responded. It means a lot to me.
And I don’t think I can do this by myself. I can’t excuse the spending for just me and I have no one to talk to who isn’t family and already upset about the loss. I have no friends and no idea what to do. I’m tired even though I’ve been sleeping far to much this week and my appetite sucks and I just don’t know what to do anymore.
EDIT: I ended up doing what was best for me and bought tickets. Now to just finish packing and see if sister can take me to and from the airport or if I have to drive myself. Thanks to those lovely people who have already responded. It means a lot to me.