random feelings
i have this picture of an amzing painting in my head..but no canvas.
ive been working on drawing faces and i do have to say im getting pretty good at it.
im kind of missing school just because i always got to be so creative and my job is not creative at all. i want to make things that blow peoples minds!
im really confused with life..things are piling up pretty fast and i cant seem to get rid of the problems..i guess thats the adult thing..whatever it is i really hate it.
the weather is finally nice and all i want to do is go to the beach. ive been spending most of my time off work outside because it takes away my stress.having the whole weekend off kind of sucks though because im always stuck at home with nothing interesting to do. im nedding a part time job for nights and weekends and cant seem to find anyone who has anything available yet, but im sure as soon as tourist season kicks in ill find something.
im so excited about graduating in june..this has been the longest and most difficult journey just to get myself through school.
im still really missing home..and old times. i wish there was some way to go back to where i was then and stay there forever.but at the same time i wouldnt like it.i guess i just miss my old group of friends and how we always did the most boring things and still made them so fun and exciting. not having that for so long i feel like ive lost a huge chunk of who i am, i would give pretty much anything to get that feeling back in my heart. i miss being carefree.. there is really no better feeling.
i think im like the grinch and my heart is shrinking each day. i feel so bitter and cold and i just need to find a way to make it grow to its full size. but how?
i need something.but what?
ive been working on drawing faces and i do have to say im getting pretty good at it.
im kind of missing school just because i always got to be so creative and my job is not creative at all. i want to make things that blow peoples minds!
im really confused with life..things are piling up pretty fast and i cant seem to get rid of the problems..i guess thats the adult thing..whatever it is i really hate it.
the weather is finally nice and all i want to do is go to the beach. ive been spending most of my time off work outside because it takes away my stress.having the whole weekend off kind of sucks though because im always stuck at home with nothing interesting to do. im nedding a part time job for nights and weekends and cant seem to find anyone who has anything available yet, but im sure as soon as tourist season kicks in ill find something.
im so excited about graduating in june..this has been the longest and most difficult journey just to get myself through school.
im still really missing home..and old times. i wish there was some way to go back to where i was then and stay there forever.but at the same time i wouldnt like it.i guess i just miss my old group of friends and how we always did the most boring things and still made them so fun and exciting. not having that for so long i feel like ive lost a huge chunk of who i am, i would give pretty much anything to get that feeling back in my heart. i miss being carefree.. there is really no better feeling.
i think im like the grinch and my heart is shrinking each day. i feel so bitter and cold and i just need to find a way to make it grow to its full size. but how?
i need something.but what?