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Here's a couple things I've learned/realized/thought about today:
-my mom needs to learn to let go and kick my brother out.
-my brother needs to wise up and get himself out of living at home.
-i love my mom so much. i admire her. i am a lot like my mom, to the point where it might be a little too much. i need to figure out who i really am not be the attributes that bother me. i've realized that i have a lot of living to do as well as a lot of figuring out who i am.
-i'm not sure if i'm completely stuck or if im just a little lost among the trees right now.
-i'm scared. way more than i let on.
-i have decisions to make that scare the shit out of me to make.
-i need more hugs on a daily basis. this year has felt deprived, i know why luckily so i think i know how to change it.
-i don't know what i'm good at, but hopefully i'll figure it out.
-i like lists :) i've been making lot lately.
-i'm kinda needy but frankly i think i deserve the things i'm needy about. i wanted to believe that i'm not a broken home statistic, but i've come to realize that i am, in more ways than one.
-i'm still grieving about cody. i think i never really started since i can barely think or talk about him without crying.
-the 60's is my favorite decade of american history
-i miss painting and being artistic. the feel of paint, creating and achievement, the rich color, even the smell of the oil makes it all worth while.
-i like being optimistic and accepted more than i show.
-when people ask me what i want for christmas, the first thing that always enters my head is love. i want my family all together getting along, i want to be with my boyfriend and be open with how much we love each other, and i want to spend hours upon days upon weeks and months with my friends having a good time and enjoying each other's company and laughs.
i'm thankful for every up and every down in my life because without them i wouldn't be anywhere near where i am today and i wouldn't have had the computer, the time, or the brain power to say everything that has already been said.
-my mom needs to learn to let go and kick my brother out.
-my brother needs to wise up and get himself out of living at home.
-i love my mom so much. i admire her. i am a lot like my mom, to the point where it might be a little too much. i need to figure out who i really am not be the attributes that bother me. i've realized that i have a lot of living to do as well as a lot of figuring out who i am.
-i'm not sure if i'm completely stuck or if im just a little lost among the trees right now.
-i'm scared. way more than i let on.
-i have decisions to make that scare the shit out of me to make.
-i need more hugs on a daily basis. this year has felt deprived, i know why luckily so i think i know how to change it.
-i don't know what i'm good at, but hopefully i'll figure it out.
-i like lists :) i've been making lot lately.
-i'm kinda needy but frankly i think i deserve the things i'm needy about. i wanted to believe that i'm not a broken home statistic, but i've come to realize that i am, in more ways than one.
-i'm still grieving about cody. i think i never really started since i can barely think or talk about him without crying.
-the 60's is my favorite decade of american history
-i miss painting and being artistic. the feel of paint, creating and achievement, the rich color, even the smell of the oil makes it all worth while.
-i like being optimistic and accepted more than i show.
-when people ask me what i want for christmas, the first thing that always enters my head is love. i want my family all together getting along, i want to be with my boyfriend and be open with how much we love each other, and i want to spend hours upon days upon weeks and months with my friends having a good time and enjoying each other's company and laughs.
i'm thankful for every up and every down in my life because without them i wouldn't be anywhere near where i am today and i wouldn't have had the computer, the time, or the brain power to say everything that has already been said.