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i don't really know how to answer people when they ask how are you? life has been super weird lately. i like living off campus because i feel like i have an actual life. i feel like i can be a little more normal and get used to where i'm living. it feels even more like my own home.
i hate that i had to get rid of my computer with all my stuff on it. i got a new computer wich is good but i really need to get used to it. i was quite spoiled wit my last computer and grante i am still spoiled having this computer but i really need to get used to the keyboard and ll that jazz.
this past week i have felt like hell all beause of birth control. not only that, because i've gone off it, my period is more painful than usual. being on the pill my period was a lot easier to deal with and going off of it has be difficult and the worst part is that i didn't go off of it for any real reason, i went off of it because i forgot to order more and the new one didn't get here in time. anyway, my physical health has been off for the past few weeks. i think that it's effecting every other aspect of my life as well. today i was going to go to west hollywood for a poetry thing for my class but i could barely could get out of bed. my cramps were so bad that i sat on the bathroom floor for about 15 minutes then was able to get myself to the couch and fell back asleep for awhile. i think i've been emotionally off as well s just not at my best lately.
i'm hoping that karma will be in my favor after taking my friend and her boyfriend to LAX at 5 in the morning yesterday. i figured that since 2 of my favorite songs played while on the way back, it should be on it's way. :) ...i hope.
i miss scott. i know that it's obvious and of course i always do, but i really miss him right now. i wish he were here and i wish i had him to hug throughout all this physical fluctuation and stress. bad times aside i wish he were here to hang out with. he's not only my boyfriend, he's my best friend and a wonderful support. of course i have my wonderful and amazing friends here whom i love and are with me in every way, but there's just something about him holding me that makes the world seem that much more safe and that much brighter.
i hate that i had to get rid of my computer with all my stuff on it. i got a new computer wich is good but i really need to get used to it. i was quite spoiled wit my last computer and grante i am still spoiled having this computer but i really need to get used to the keyboard and ll that jazz.
this past week i have felt like hell all beause of birth control. not only that, because i've gone off it, my period is more painful than usual. being on the pill my period was a lot easier to deal with and going off of it has be difficult and the worst part is that i didn't go off of it for any real reason, i went off of it because i forgot to order more and the new one didn't get here in time. anyway, my physical health has been off for the past few weeks. i think that it's effecting every other aspect of my life as well. today i was going to go to west hollywood for a poetry thing for my class but i could barely could get out of bed. my cramps were so bad that i sat on the bathroom floor for about 15 minutes then was able to get myself to the couch and fell back asleep for awhile. i think i've been emotionally off as well s just not at my best lately.
i'm hoping that karma will be in my favor after taking my friend and her boyfriend to LAX at 5 in the morning yesterday. i figured that since 2 of my favorite songs played while on the way back, it should be on it's way. :) ...i hope.
i miss scott. i know that it's obvious and of course i always do, but i really miss him right now. i wish he were here and i wish i had him to hug throughout all this physical fluctuation and stress. bad times aside i wish he were here to hang out with. he's not only my boyfriend, he's my best friend and a wonderful support. of course i have my wonderful and amazing friends here whom i love and are with me in every way, but there's just something about him holding me that makes the world seem that much more safe and that much brighter.