just up, thinking
i miss certain things. i miss him not bugging me for crusts when i eat pizza. i miss not having him poke his head in the pantry door when i open it up. i miss not having to make sure he doesn't run out the front door as well as seeing his face that breaks my heart when i leave but bright hopeful eyes when i come back. i miss his wagging tail, especially when it's time for a walk or i'm playing with him and it's hitting the ground, a table leg, or me.
it's lonely at night when i just turn off the lights and go upstairs rather than making sure he's comfortable, has water, and giving him kisses so he knows he's loved before i go to bed.
i teared up at the park today because 1) it's not at all the same without him 2) i was really looking forward to taking him for a walk when i got home but i never got the chance.
i wish he were here when i feel so insecure and unattractive because he doesn't care. i'd still get loving kisses and he'd still want to play with me. at least both of us weren't really athletic so that we'd be on each other's activity level. he was definitely my dog considering how much we both sleep. what i thought about my body and myself never mattered, he loved me despite my size and always cheered me up. i'm not saying that aren't people in my life like this, i'm saying it's different because dogs don't judge like we do. they love you as long as you give them attention and pet them.
i miss cody so much.
and i'm sorry if i talk too much about him cause if you let me, i will just keep talking. i need to, but in doses. please let me know when it's too much.
*mad dawg, i'm sorry about thursday. i just wasn't all there that day. i miss you.
it's lonely at night when i just turn off the lights and go upstairs rather than making sure he's comfortable, has water, and giving him kisses so he knows he's loved before i go to bed.
i teared up at the park today because 1) it's not at all the same without him 2) i was really looking forward to taking him for a walk when i got home but i never got the chance.
i wish he were here when i feel so insecure and unattractive because he doesn't care. i'd still get loving kisses and he'd still want to play with me. at least both of us weren't really athletic so that we'd be on each other's activity level. he was definitely my dog considering how much we both sleep. what i thought about my body and myself never mattered, he loved me despite my size and always cheered me up. i'm not saying that aren't people in my life like this, i'm saying it's different because dogs don't judge like we do. they love you as long as you give them attention and pet them.
i miss cody so much.
and i'm sorry if i talk too much about him cause if you let me, i will just keep talking. i need to, but in doses. please let me know when it's too much.
*mad dawg, i'm sorry about thursday. i just wasn't all there that day. i miss you.