Getting worries about my party out my system.
Its weird having mixed feelings about my birthday party. I hope there's no passive- aggressive proselytizing. It's weird being an open nonbeliever now. I haven't really acted on it yet but there's definitely a sense of relief knowing that I don't have to pretend anymore. Living a double life between two churches I didn't believe in was just ridiculous looking back on it. Now I have nothing to hide. I imagine there'll be questions and testimonies and preaching at me that I'll have to deal with when its over. I don't know why I feel nervous instinctively. Everyone coming either already knows or I'm not fussed what they think. There's no need to worry.