This and that.
First off, I would like to say happy Independence Day to everyone! I usually throw a big party out at my Grandma's farm for the fourth but I didn't really feel much like celebrating this year (we all are still working through grief over the death of my Uncle) so I canceled the party this year. I think my cousin Grete was a little dissappointed but I told her I would shoot off some fireworks for her and her little girls some other time.
Dad came home from Canada today. It was a somewhat emotional night as he told us about the funeral. It turns out that he delivered the eulogy. Aunt Rose also asked him to read my letter as part of his eulogy. I wish I had been able to articulate myself better but I'm sure everyone understood. Aunt Rose sent a note back with dad for me as well as a large bag of her favorite books and one of her beautiful necklaces. I'm not really sure why she sent me these gifts but I'm deeply touched.
Yesterday night was a bit strange. I had a long conversation with my ex-fiance, Sam. The strange part wasn't that I talked to him. We have been in contact for about three months now (ever since we accidentally ran into each other at a LAN party) and are slowly rebuilding a friendship (nothing more). The strange part was that Sam some how was able to get me to spill my guts about two very important topics that have been on my mind lately; my relationship with Ben and a potential change of plans concerning my future. He didn't really give much advice but just talking about it with someone really helped me put things into perspective. Now I just need to find the courage to take these bold steps. It really is a shame that Sam decided against becoming a psychologist. Psychology really is his forte! Then again, he never did stick with what is best for him...guess I'm still a bit bitter.
I realize I am just rambling at this point...I'm having trouble thinking straight so I'll just stop here for tonight.