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Okay - well it's kind of a relief to know that all that election jazz is over with. I'm sitting here in class, trying to day a paper on the Electoral College, how exciting does that sound. Must not be too exciting because I decided to sit down and write and update.
I don't really have any sound plans for this weekend. I've got a huge paper to write tonight for Eng.101 that I really don't understand also gotta work tonight and tomorrow night, and then a shift sunday morning. Fun times. II think that I came to a realization as I was making my big walk down to vocational this morning. I really want to be out of high school. I'm not scared... and if I could get out of here right now, then I would. But... as many of your know, I am bound by these walls until may. For awhile though, I was scared about leaving. The future really scared me to think about. But I'm not longer scared, just excited. I wish I could look into the future to see where I'm going to be, what I'm going to be doing. How things that happen now, are going to effect me then. No one knows...and thats the part that gets me going. The excitement of not knowing what's going to happen in the future. Gives me something to look forward to.
I dwell on the future much more than I should. I need to focus on now.
I keep thinking I know where I am going to college, but then I think on other possibilities, and what could happen.
Possibilies are just endless. It's all up to me. The biggest decision of my life. Ofcourse, it should be up to me. I just can't believe the time has come. Its something I think about all the time. I know that if I did make my decision then I wouldn't have to go through this agony, but I'm just not sure if I'm ready to put away that piece of my life yet. Everything is strange. My time will come soon enough.
Until my next update.
*Catty*
I don't really have any sound plans for this weekend. I've got a huge paper to write tonight for Eng.101 that I really don't understand also gotta work tonight and tomorrow night, and then a shift sunday morning. Fun times. II think that I came to a realization as I was making my big walk down to vocational this morning. I really want to be out of high school. I'm not scared... and if I could get out of here right now, then I would. But... as many of your know, I am bound by these walls until may. For awhile though, I was scared about leaving. The future really scared me to think about. But I'm not longer scared, just excited. I wish I could look into the future to see where I'm going to be, what I'm going to be doing. How things that happen now, are going to effect me then. No one knows...and thats the part that gets me going. The excitement of not knowing what's going to happen in the future. Gives me something to look forward to.
I dwell on the future much more than I should. I need to focus on now.
I keep thinking I know where I am going to college, but then I think on other possibilities, and what could happen.
Possibilies are just endless. It's all up to me. The biggest decision of my life. Ofcourse, it should be up to me. I just can't believe the time has come. Its something I think about all the time. I know that if I did make my decision then I wouldn't have to go through this agony, but I'm just not sure if I'm ready to put away that piece of my life yet. Everything is strange. My time will come soon enough.
Until my next update.
*Catty*