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I can't believe it's been so long since I've updated - freakin election day!!! Wooo
I feel so contemplative this morning, I was sitting on my couch after Carrie left and it just made me want to write. I wasn't sure what exactly I wanted to say but had to say something.
Yeah, I definetly got a little tipsy in lexington last night, and yes Carrie ended up driving my car back home. I made a few too many phone calls, and me and care bear crashed at my house and woke up and made some yummy biscuits.
All thats not important though. Here I am sitting here single as can be, not dating anyone, and I mean anyone. I have broke off all my ties with everyone. In a way in makes me feel like I have a clearer mind. It makes me feel good to not be committed to anyone but myself. I only have to try and please myself, though sometimes that can be a difficult task, I am attempting to make it work.
L o v e - what a word. I mean people say and believe with their deepest souls they mean it, but truly I don't feel like they realize what it all incompases (spelled that one wrong). I want to be one of those couples taking walks through the park and holding hands, and taking pictures of each other, while making corny jokes that only they understand. It's almost like people who are truly in love speak this language that only they can comprehend. It's the look, just the way, it's almost undescribable. As if no word will rectify the true meaning.
My friend Carrie and her boyfriend are in love. They can be doing absoultly nothing and be happy. I am truly happy for all those people who are blessed to make it work, and feel that through their soul.
I have so much on my mind right now, sometimes I just don't know how to deal. I need to pick a college. I am almost halfway through my senior year. I can't imagine leaving everyone in May. I know its what I've always wanted, and I was jealous when they seniors graduated last year. I wanted to be leaving. I hope I will be ready when the time comes. I just want someone here to tell me that it's okay, and that I'm gonna be fine, that everything will be fine.
If I don't think positively right now...I'll never get through this on my own. So for now I'll have to deal and just stay chilled. Put my facination with love to the side, and focus. That's what I need to do.
I'm not quite sure how to end this one...
Well have an awesome election day and hopefully I'll have another update up soon
I feel so contemplative this morning, I was sitting on my couch after Carrie left and it just made me want to write. I wasn't sure what exactly I wanted to say but had to say something.
Yeah, I definetly got a little tipsy in lexington last night, and yes Carrie ended up driving my car back home. I made a few too many phone calls, and me and care bear crashed at my house and woke up and made some yummy biscuits.
All thats not important though. Here I am sitting here single as can be, not dating anyone, and I mean anyone. I have broke off all my ties with everyone. In a way in makes me feel like I have a clearer mind. It makes me feel good to not be committed to anyone but myself. I only have to try and please myself, though sometimes that can be a difficult task, I am attempting to make it work.
L o v e - what a word. I mean people say and believe with their deepest souls they mean it, but truly I don't feel like they realize what it all incompases (spelled that one wrong). I want to be one of those couples taking walks through the park and holding hands, and taking pictures of each other, while making corny jokes that only they understand. It's almost like people who are truly in love speak this language that only they can comprehend. It's the look, just the way, it's almost undescribable. As if no word will rectify the true meaning.
My friend Carrie and her boyfriend are in love. They can be doing absoultly nothing and be happy. I am truly happy for all those people who are blessed to make it work, and feel that through their soul.
I have so much on my mind right now, sometimes I just don't know how to deal. I need to pick a college. I am almost halfway through my senior year. I can't imagine leaving everyone in May. I know its what I've always wanted, and I was jealous when they seniors graduated last year. I wanted to be leaving. I hope I will be ready when the time comes. I just want someone here to tell me that it's okay, and that I'm gonna be fine, that everything will be fine.
If I don't think positively right now...I'll never get through this on my own. So for now I'll have to deal and just stay chilled. Put my facination with love to the side, and focus. That's what I need to do.
I'm not quite sure how to end this one...
Well have an awesome election day and hopefully I'll have another update up soon