(Dear, Gabriel doesn't keep holy water ready. o_O There's always normal water around and he can bless it if need be, but he's a good enough fighter that he doesn't really rely on things like holy water. xD Raphael could always ask him to bless it, I suppose)
*eyes tear up, unable to face another rejection* Yes, that... that's who I was. I Fell. I gave in to Lust and Wrath and... and Fell. Zi- Aziraphale wants nothing to do with me and I can't say I blame him... I've lost everything that has ever mattered! My son and you and Michael are forever taken from me... I can't go on like this! Can... Can you bless this water please...?
Please just put me out of my misery! I can't bear to live another day, another moment as a... a... a demon! *Bitter tears spill down his cheeks, neglected wings drooping miserably.* I can't even say I'm sorry or repent! I've always wondered why demons never rise and now I know! Falling tears away any ability to do so! *sniffles* And even if I did somehow go against this horrid nature and Rise again, I will always be marked by this...
[part of him wants to hug the being that was once his brother, and part of him feels too betrayed] I'm not going to kill you, but I suggest you leave. Your new master probably has tasks for you.
*sets the bowl down, still crying* I'm going to the church down the road. There's a priest there and Im going to have him bless some water for me. And if I melt walking into the church then well... It'll be easier to clean than wet demon goo. *wipes his eyes with his fist* I can't go on this way. I can't.
There is no redemption for me! That's what I was trying to explain! Falling rips out any ability to repent or Id have done so a million times already! I... Id rather be a pile of goo than have to face eternity this way! *sniffs and wipes his eyes again* I'd rather be a stain on the carpet than have to face this rejection from Zi- Aziraphale and you. It... It is a pain worse than Falling...
I am not Uriel. I'm not even an angel anymore. The way you're looking at me right now is the same way Aziraphale did and it tears me apart inside. I have nothing and nobody anymore. I refuse to return to Hell. Id rather be beaten until Im nothing but feathers than obey the words of Lucifer. *Looks at him, pain in his gaze* You were my brother once. I know you cared for Michael more than me and I never minded, but if you ever cared at all please show me mercy. I have no reason to continue on.
Fine. I'll go to the priest then. I'm sure he'd love to have it on his account that he destroyed an evil de... demon... *bites his lip, turning away from him* You know that I would not have rejected you were you the one to Fall. I waited for your return every day of your Exile. But I suppose that does not matter any more. I don't matter anymore.
Sincerest apologies, Raphael is not adjusting well to Falling D:... Raphael get out of there!!
Raphael: *wibbles and holds water bottle protectively*
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Oh okay XD sorry
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*starts to cry*
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[stares at the tears for a moment, before wordlessly pushing a tissue box towards him]
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You let yourself be Tempted, and now you throw away all chances of redemption?
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There is no redemption for me! That's what I was trying to explain! Falling rips out any ability to repent or Id have done so a million times already! I... Id rather be a pile of goo than have to face eternity this way! *sniffs and wipes his eyes again* I'd rather be a stain on the carpet than have to face this rejection from Zi- Aziraphale and you. It... It is a pain worse than Falling...
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I am not Uriel. I'm not even an angel anymore. The way you're looking at me right now is the same way Aziraphale did and it tears me apart inside. I have nothing and nobody anymore. I refuse to return to Hell. Id rather be beaten until Im nothing but feathers than obey the words of Lucifer. *Looks at him, pain in his gaze* You were my brother once. I know you cared for Michael more than me and I never minded, but if you ever cared at all please show me mercy. I have no reason to continue on.
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*Starts to run out, tears falling*
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