It Might Seem Like a Dream, But it's Real to Me
As I drove home from the barn Saturday I had this overwhelming feeling of euphoria and I figured out why: I finally decided that horseback riding is not something I can let go of when I go to college. It's a topic that has been on my mind forever and I finally figured out the answer.
And I was thinking yesterday about what I want to do with my life and what's really important to me. It's so intimidating to think of all the choices that are in my future.
Tears formed behind my eyes Saturday at Misty Meadows because this girl's mom was SO dedicated to her daughter. Her daughter could barely make a sound and it was an accomplishment for her to smile or even make eye contact. But her mom stood by her side singing songs for like 40 mins. all to make her daughter respond and seem happy while atop of the horse. Her mom talked about all the things they would do that day like go to Starbucks and go shopping. I thought to myself how difficult it would be to do those things since her daughter has to move around in a wheelchair. I thought about all the looks the inconsiderate people would make when they entered a store... it hit me hard that that mother has been through so much and yet she still had a smile on her face. All that mattered to her was that her daughter was smiling too.
Later that night I went shopping with Meg and I felt the tinge of digust as I watched spoiled girls try on expensive prom dresses yelling at their mothers to get another size. These people... god, I just wanted to scream at them. IT DOESN'T MATTER! The stupid dresses, the money... it doesn't matter. Not when you're child is disabled or someone you know is dying or when a war's going on or when you should be making life decisions.
If only everyone would understand that all the stupid "he said, she said" shit doesn't matter. That just because you're having a bad day it doesn't mean the world is going to end. Life is about dealing with problems, they will always be there. The only thing that will ever change is how you deal with those problems.
And I was thinking yesterday about what I want to do with my life and what's really important to me. It's so intimidating to think of all the choices that are in my future.
Tears formed behind my eyes Saturday at Misty Meadows because this girl's mom was SO dedicated to her daughter. Her daughter could barely make a sound and it was an accomplishment for her to smile or even make eye contact. But her mom stood by her side singing songs for like 40 mins. all to make her daughter respond and seem happy while atop of the horse. Her mom talked about all the things they would do that day like go to Starbucks and go shopping. I thought to myself how difficult it would be to do those things since her daughter has to move around in a wheelchair. I thought about all the looks the inconsiderate people would make when they entered a store... it hit me hard that that mother has been through so much and yet she still had a smile on her face. All that mattered to her was that her daughter was smiling too.
Later that night I went shopping with Meg and I felt the tinge of digust as I watched spoiled girls try on expensive prom dresses yelling at their mothers to get another size. These people... god, I just wanted to scream at them. IT DOESN'T MATTER! The stupid dresses, the money... it doesn't matter. Not when you're child is disabled or someone you know is dying or when a war's going on or when you should be making life decisions.
If only everyone would understand that all the stupid "he said, she said" shit doesn't matter. That just because you're having a bad day it doesn't mean the world is going to end. Life is about dealing with problems, they will always be there. The only thing that will ever change is how you deal with those problems.