lame and a little heartbroken
i'm hoping tomorrow somehow salvages this crappy week, but odds aren't so great.
it all started tuesday at work then continued on into the night when i got my awesome $200 something ticket for running a red (yellow) light. wednesday was not so bad because i figured that, well, i can't do anything about the ticket so might as well force myself to be in a good mood. today was crap. i was in surgery at work with one of the co-owners. nothing irritates me more than when people act like i don't know what i'm doing... i had to work with this doctor on tuesday morning and we had some difficult patients come into appointments. i'm fine, i can handle caution cats and dogs if she would let me do my job. but no, she doesn't think i can do it so it all ends with a cat trying to eat people. my favorite memory of tuesday was when a little daschund tried to nip at me (surprise surprise) when i went to take him out of the room to get blood drawn. and said dr. states, 'oh... he's not being bad out here. maybe you're putting off a vibe from the earlier appointments'. really? even after dad acted like he wasn't surprised and said he might need a muzzle? today she insinuated that i was holding a dog incorrectly and that's why he was acting up. her attitude towards me is degrading and it angers me to the point that i'm in obviously crappy mood at work. my moral has gone downhill over the past few weeks and i'm pretty sure that they're going to say something to me about it.
later on, i find out that we're now having assigned late tech days. of course, you get to 'choose' your day based on seniority and since i'm only ahead of two people, i basically get last choice. i generally have plans on thursday with cookout and all so i was okay with having an occasional late thursday. my choices were thursday and friday. the majority of the fridays that i have been late, i've been there until at least nine. how is this even fair to the people who haven't been there as long? i chose friday; i hope they have fun trying to make me have three hour lunches to get rid of overtime... which really defeats the purpose of even having overtime if you don't get paid for it. i was obviously not happy about this new development so i'm sure they can bring that up too when they talk to me about my attitude problem.
then i come home to not so personal email from zssd about the maui job. quote "After careful review, we have identified other candidates with skills that more closely match the requirements needed for this position". how the crap can I NOT have the requirements for mbcc IF I HAVE ALREADY WORKED THERE FOR A YEAR. this makes me want to cuss. really zssd? REALLY? i'm expecting a similar email about kbcc any minute now. this is stupid. what am i supposed to do now? i'm freaking stuck in columbia with no job prospects. how did this happen? i've somehow managed to waste the past two years of my life.
so basically, work is crap, social life is crap, roommate situation is crap. i seriously need to find some way to remedy all three of these soon or else i'm going to have a mental breakdown.
thanks for listening livejournal. i would have vented to an actual person, but like i said before... my social life is crap.