May 24, 2006 15:26
right im just awake, but i had this FUCK OFF weird dream, like this was just...head meltin and its all really clear...
right first off we were all sittin in my house like, me my mum and my granny and the phone rang and it was the hospital and they were like your grandas been taken to hospital bla bla bla...so we all drove up and they were like 'we have to let him rest for 24 hours we cant do anything until after that, we have to know if he can keep himself alive.' and we were like 'wtf is wrong with him...' and they were all 'the blood flow on the right side of his head has changed direction.'
so we went home and started settin up this mad funeral beside like a lake (granda, buried at sea...dont ask) and we invited everyone, but it was everyone I knew, not my mum or my granny or my granda :S
so we were sittin waitin on like a few more people to come (bearing in mind he wasnt even DEAD yet!) and i looked over and saw andy and chris, and i hadnt rang either of them so i was like eh? and they walked over and then chris saw michael and some guy and he went to talk to them and andy went to see if shannon or danielle had arrived yet, so i was sittin on these rocks beside a wee bridge and chris came over and gave me a joint and i was like :) and i went we need to talk...
so we walked to the other side of the wee bridge and kept on walkin along this path and i stopped in the middle and went 'the thing is...' and he went 'hes dead' and i was like 'yea now ur gettin me!' like there was no conversation before that. but then i carried on to say like i wudnt be in the best form wen he did die and stuff and then we walked over the bridge again and i heard something drop and went ... was that my bag? did my bag drop into the water? and chris, without LOOKING BEHIND US jumped into the water and i looked behind and it was the bag i took to the formal but it was like all splittin its seams and watnot and it was just sittin on the bridge. so i was like 'em, chris its here' and he was all like stained green lmao
so we walked back to this wee hut thing where my family was and got him all clean and dry and stuff and then we were sittin at wat looked IDENTICAL to new york, and anton and fathead and all were there and they were sayin how they thought it was right that we like, push him into the sea on skateboards and i was like 'yes i think he wud have wanted that.'
so we were sittin and then someone said, right we have to get the train to the next step. so we got on this MASSIVE train, it had like two decks and it was completely made of glass and went really slowly, and i just remember being really scared to go near the window even though it was open and i was getting cold but i thought, ill wait until we're on safer tracks. and i remember lookin out and that guy who looked like rod stewart was staring in from a car, but he was like a kid and the train was like descending down onto like flat ground and stuff
and i was lying on my stomach with a pillow and it looked like first class on a plane. and chris was like sittin upright beside me rubbin my legs and then i was like 'here mate where we goin' and like he always does he sed 'larne'lmao
and like the top deck was empty bar me chris andy shannon danielle jay and some other random and everyone else was either in the bottom deck or in a differnt carriage.
but we got to this house thing beside a lake and it was really remote and it had this big stone roof over the whole thing excpet the opening of the lake and the view was wayyy nicer than the last one and my mum was like 'yea i think this is what he talked about'
next thing i was on the phone to the hospital and he was like 'he isnt getting much better, i think you should come up' so me and chris and my mum and my granny went and chris went to get munchies from the machine and we went down to the room. and it was like a primary school classroom and it was all bright colours and covered in finger paintings and all and i remember lookin at him and not like being sad or anything and then i just sad down on this wee classroom chair. but then i sed 'its been almost 20 mintues, im gunna go find chris' so i walked out and chris was in the hall in a wheelchair doin wee wheelies infront of this like 5 year old kid who had tubes all over her and then he saw me and he goes 'and thats why you DONT fool about on hospital equipment, you might look silly in front of your girlfriend :P' and i was like, come on we're leaving and he was likw wheres everyone else and i was like they'll come in time.
so we went back to this place and we were sittin in the hut and i was smokin and he goes, cathy this hut is made of wood, go outside and i was like 'member of my familys dying i dont have to do anything' then i threw it out the door and we walked outside to where EVERYONE was standing just looking at the lake and we were like here mate whats goin on and john straghan goes 'we thought it was a boat but it was a whale' (really weird cuz yesterday on the bus to town he goes 'aw its just a boat, i thought it was a whale' and pointed to belfast lough and this wee tiny speedboat lmao) and there was this massive killer whale just jumping about and i started to cry and walked away
and chris goes 'i know something thatll cheer you up' and put on the song they played at jonnys funeral on the oc so i cried even more and then my mum and granny arrived with this coffin and i was like :| but it was weird because my granny was wlaking perfectly whereas now she can hardly walk at all. but i walked over and opened it and it was empty and i was like 'hes not dead yet is he...' and she sed no but we needed something to carry the cd player and i opened the other half and there was this cd player lmao. so we started playing all this frank sinatra stuff and i was like mate im bored and i just remember shannon goin 'can we not put on hollaback girl seein as we're in larne' and everyone started laughing and that sorta brightened everyone up
then me and chris walked down to like the edge of the water and noone sed anything he just hugged me and i didnt cry or anything i just stood there because i knew there was nothing i could do. and then i looked at him and he was crying and i was like 'stop it you big pussy' and then shannon andy and danielle came up and started huggin like both of us and we all stood in this line beside the water and andy started singing and we just looked at each other and pushed him in and walked off lmao
then we started walkin back up and danielle and shannon ran ahead and me and chris were just walkin and we saw my granda standing and he looked great and he was in the hopital thing and i ran up and hugged him and he goes 'alright sweetpea' and smiled and i was like 'hey :)' and he goes 'dont get too happy, im just here to say goodbye' and then i looked at chris and he was like all confused lookin and thats when i woke up...
i dunno i thought it was like the weirdest thing ever...maybe ive watched big fish a few times too many lmao