Jun 20, 2004 12:23
First and foremost, I love you all! Why I feel I need to leave is because someone very close to me got upset that I like to reach out and be there for people younger than myself. She basically said I was sick in the head and that I should leave young people alone, especially since I'm old enough to be their Moms. She has not liked the fact that her teenager spoke more to me than her...what can I say. Now he hates me and the friction is dissolving my long-term friendship with the Mom. I don't ever want to hurt any of you....I cherish our time and I'm always willing to "be there" for you if it is at all possible.
To be honest, I'm not sure what to do. Do you "younger" people dislike the fact that I'm 47 years old and I have a heart for young people and their issues? Do you feel I meddle in your business too much?
Please be honest with me. If you don't have a problem, then maybe I can continue with my LJ, but if in all honesty you prefer NOT to have someone so old chat with you, please let me know. I want what's best for each of you....my feelings are secondary at this point.
This all got thrown on me yesterday afternoon and it looks like I will end up leaving my church because the tension is so thick. I cried a good portion of the afternoon and evening, but what hurt the most was not attending church this morning...my church home for almost 10 years now. I feel so empty and like I'm a piece of worthless trash.
Anyway, that's what happened in a nutshell.....I've made some mistakes, but I've asked for forgiveness and I've tried to learn by them. I'm not perfect, just forgiven.
People, it's your call......really and truly. If you don't want an old fart as your LJ friend, please tell me. If I bother you with the comments I make, please let me know.
Again, no matter what, I love you all! You own a little portion of my heart!
Love & Hugs,
Jeanne