Things I loved at fair
1.) The entire royal pavilion cheering for me as Drake made me a member of the sea dogs.
2.) Yelling "A night with the sea dogs wouldn't do us any harm" with Izzy, Bess, and Catherine (ladies all)...I still think it should have been " Well a night upon a sea dog wouldn't do me any harm"...but you know I'm just CRAZYEE like dat.
3.) Being told I have a resemblance to Elizabeth Shue...and that it's a good thing...still not sure what she looks like...but thank you! It was nice to have someone say I was pretty. As I have gotten older that happens less and less. Of course my Roger...aka Chuck...says it alot, but I would hope he thinks I'm cute (after 14 years he better damn well think I'm sexy as hell)
4.) Letting a catipillar crawl on my hand for a good ten minuets. I have a pretty bad phobia of bugs, grass, heat, allergies in general, saying the wrong thing, um...oh gosh it could go on and on...but let's just say fear has been a regular part of my life for a very long time. Even hugging or sweat, drinking out of a dirty glass, kissing on the lips (except Chuck) eating food with dirty hands. I could litterally go on for at least fifteen minutes over things that I have issues with, to say the least. I'm serious when I say I have some hang ups...but...something happened to me over the last few weeks. I'm still processing it, but I do believe a dam may have sprung a leak in my phyche, and I'm not sure what will come of it yet. Hopefully things will keep going in a way to allow me a more outgoing life.
5.) Being told "I love you" by people I respect and admire and would never in a million years thought would even know my name. Much less have earned some love and respect back. I don't show my emotions well, I'm not the wear your heart on your sleeve type...I'm more the suck it up and deal with it type. But at the end of fair I was told that, and it meant the world to me.
6.) Seeing my husband through eyes I haven't looked through in about 13 years. It really brought it back to me how I felt when I first laid eyes on him...the first kiss...that kind of feeling coming back was amazing, and totally worth every bit of everything I had to go through in order to do this fair...it's why I fought past myself and my fear in the first place. I had to see him play, to be there for him and with him as he embarked on this new journey. I'd walk through fire for him, and my close friends know...it was walking through fire for me to come out and do this ren fest.
7.) Seeing Di smile at me. She absolutely has the most amazing smile. It is a mental image I hope never fades.
8.) And of course, watching all the sea dog shows I possibly could (I believe I only missed a few) . My son Thomas is sooooo CUTE! Like a leetle button he is...oh my gash...he ees adorable.
9.) And last but not least hearing that Riley thinks very highly of my son Ben. He had such good things to say after spending so much time with him. Awesome.
There was soooo much but those are just the ones that pop into my sleep deprived dehydrated brain right now...*side hug*