So I'm in a Major Funk Mood
Today... Part of it has to probably do with the fact since Sunday, Frankie is throwing tantrums over the simplest things. Yesterday he even bruised a few of my ribs while I was changing his diaper because he wouldn't lay still and kept kicking and hitting me. Then today while I was in the bathroom right before Frankie's bus came and during that time, he got a hold of a Sharpie and marked up his face and arms. Wouldn't you know I discover this as I walk out of the bathroom and the bus is pulling up! I had to send him off to school like that. If that didn't make me feel bad, him coming home clean made me feel even worse!
So I had put on my Facebook status that I was running away from home. That I just needed to get away from men and kids for a while. Several people thought I was joking, 1 offered me suggestions of places, and Kam suggested I go to Vega$ with her this weekend. I'm loving this idea, especially since we were going to get together Monday anyway while I'm down in LA. Then she mentions bringing her daughter! I cringe but called Tom and asked him. He said I couldn't and we'd talk at lunch.
So here I'm thinking he's finally decided what we were going to do this weekend. Stay in Ontario until Monday or stay in Downtown LA close to the hospital. I figured it had to be good if he wasn't letting me go to Vegas.
So he comes home a bit early for lunch. My comment about running away from home to get away from men and kids pissed him off really bad and now we'll leave on Sunday IF we can crash at Kam's otherwise we'll drive down Monday morning.
Here I am crying my eyes because I already feel like a horrible mom and he's making it worse by making me feel like a bad wife! And to make matters worse, did he disagree with me saying I was a bad mom? For the first time, no!
The SOB just doesn't realize that I need some serious me time before I snap! And sitting around the house all day while Frankie's at preschool does NOT count! We have 1 car still, so I can't even go get a haircut, or a pedicure, or even just a smoothie and donut! I'm stuck in this house 24/7 and most of the time have to deal with Frankie's tantrums all by myself. Even when he's home!
I love Frankie with all my heart, don't get me wrong, but I'm going insane! And I was so looking forward to getting away for the weekend, just so I got out of the damn house! It's sad when I beg to go to The Dollar Tree just to get some fresh air when he gets home.
So I had put on my Facebook status that I was running away from home. That I just needed to get away from men and kids for a while. Several people thought I was joking, 1 offered me suggestions of places, and Kam suggested I go to Vega$ with her this weekend. I'm loving this idea, especially since we were going to get together Monday anyway while I'm down in LA. Then she mentions bringing her daughter! I cringe but called Tom and asked him. He said I couldn't and we'd talk at lunch.
So here I'm thinking he's finally decided what we were going to do this weekend. Stay in Ontario until Monday or stay in Downtown LA close to the hospital. I figured it had to be good if he wasn't letting me go to Vegas.
So he comes home a bit early for lunch. My comment about running away from home to get away from men and kids pissed him off really bad and now we'll leave on Sunday IF we can crash at Kam's otherwise we'll drive down Monday morning.
Here I am crying my eyes because I already feel like a horrible mom and he's making it worse by making me feel like a bad wife! And to make matters worse, did he disagree with me saying I was a bad mom? For the first time, no!
The SOB just doesn't realize that I need some serious me time before I snap! And sitting around the house all day while Frankie's at preschool does NOT count! We have 1 car still, so I can't even go get a haircut, or a pedicure, or even just a smoothie and donut! I'm stuck in this house 24/7 and most of the time have to deal with Frankie's tantrums all by myself. Even when he's home!
I love Frankie with all my heart, don't get me wrong, but I'm going insane! And I was so looking forward to getting away for the weekend, just so I got out of the damn house! It's sad when I beg to go to The Dollar Tree just to get some fresh air when he gets home.