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i am so tired of sundays being sucky. i mean they aren't in a way. they are good and fun. but the same thing happens every sunday. my mom goes to work, i have my friends over, i smoke/drink, i come down, everyone goes home, i have to do homework, i wait for monday to come and go. it is so annoying. and there is really nothing i can do about it being this way. and this isn't just sunday by the way. this is almost everyday of the week. i don't know what i miss about the earlier days of this year. but i do miss them. i can't wait until summer. it'll be a nice change. not to have school coming up after the weekend is over. it'll be great. you know what most i hate about a lot of things right now? how everyone is all coupled up. what the fuck is that. why are me and my friends such stereotypical teens. lmao. i hate how morgan and justin completly disolve into one another. i hate how i never see tanner and mattie. i hate how beth is always with eric. andrew's always coupled up with somebody, most of the time one of the freshmen. not to say that i don't absolutly love these people. they are my best friends. but i never really get to get a dose of these people individually anymore. and when you do, you know that they would rather be with that certain somebody else rather than you. i hate that feeling that i sometimes get. it makes me miss the earlier days. when everyone was somewhat equal to one another. no one wished that they were with somebody else when they were around me. and i feel so stupid and pathetic even thinking this much less writing this. and the sadest part is that if i had someone like that, than i would be worse than all of them combined. but i won't be, cause i sort of focussed all of my everything on someone before and it's cool but then they get tired of you and it hurts to not have them around anymore. even when there is everything around to completely get them off your mind. by the way i ramble a lot so i'm sorry. lmao. you probably didn't read this anyway cause you probably somebody else that you are thinking about and would rather read their lj than mine. lmao. just kidding. i am not completely psycho by the way.
thankyou seth and lindsay and katie.
and my friends who have girl/boyfriends. i love you. and i'm just sad and jealous and i need to write this to make myself feel better. so don't worry about it.
love johnny