blame it on the rain
it's the beginning of pride weekend and it pissed it down with rain all day. ah fuckit. I didn't go.
been a while since i've been on this thing.
i'm tired and bored, rainy weather makes me feel cooped up even when i didn't want to go out in the first place. Currently wrestling with the 'where am i going with my life/what do i want' type questions. This week, I want to change degrees and do a professional herbalism diploma, and move back to the west coast (in a year). Herbal medicine is something i'm really passionate about, and believe in. But 18 months ago i was passionate about doing a degree in woman's studies. So what if i change my mind in another 18 months? I dunno. I do feel strongly pulled to go back west, even though it's scary and means coming back at peace with my previous life there. It also means being by the ocean and being able to visit the woods and hang out in old-growth forests and living somewhere more peaceful and quiet with more green life! all things that are becoming more important to me.
I remember the first time i saw the forests coming down to the water when i caught the ferry to vancouver island...it blew my mind and stole my heart. I keep on coming back to that memory at the moment. I really want to be heading back there in the next year. It's like some part of my soul is tied to the northwest.
sigh. I wish i could get a fortune teller or a psychic to tell me what i should do that will make me the happiest and most secure.
been a while since i've been on this thing.
i'm tired and bored, rainy weather makes me feel cooped up even when i didn't want to go out in the first place. Currently wrestling with the 'where am i going with my life/what do i want' type questions. This week, I want to change degrees and do a professional herbalism diploma, and move back to the west coast (in a year). Herbal medicine is something i'm really passionate about, and believe in. But 18 months ago i was passionate about doing a degree in woman's studies. So what if i change my mind in another 18 months? I dunno. I do feel strongly pulled to go back west, even though it's scary and means coming back at peace with my previous life there. It also means being by the ocean and being able to visit the woods and hang out in old-growth forests and living somewhere more peaceful and quiet with more green life! all things that are becoming more important to me.
I remember the first time i saw the forests coming down to the water when i caught the ferry to vancouver island...it blew my mind and stole my heart. I keep on coming back to that memory at the moment. I really want to be heading back there in the next year. It's like some part of my soul is tied to the northwest.
sigh. I wish i could get a fortune teller or a psychic to tell me what i should do that will make me the happiest and most secure.