(Another post was made via Wordpress earlier today from work. For now, I have no way to post on Dreamwidth using my phone. If you are interested, check out my Wordpress blog at
http://candacegauger.wordpress.com .)
As mentioned earlier this fine winter’s day, I am back. but this time, I am back in more ways than one. I am finally back on my desktop after about two weeks, if not a bit longer, of working via laptop. I love my laptop, but it just can’t handle the normal parts of my routine.
That is how I intended it to be when I first got it, but it held up and took everything in stride, if slower than what I am accustomed to doing. Now, the poor thing can have a much deserved rest while i run rampant across the internet on my newly awakened desktop machine.
Thankfully, it was only the power supply that died when it decided to blow up. It didn’t take anything else with it, but boy did it go with a bang. Scared the squeak right out of me, I tell ya. I was afraid the loud popping of the capacitor breaking took out the CPU, or even a hard drive or two. No idea what caused it to blow since this nice apartment is bug free and mostly clean. Sure, we got cat hair everywhere, but the vents are cleaned off regularly. Could be something tiny got in unnoticed and made it go BOOM.
With the main machine up and running, I can finish the pictures I had started and work more on my writing when I do return writing. There’s a lot to get colored, plus three or four pictures which I need to sketch out. Sadly, my drawing muse is busy hiding from me. She’s a fickle creature who drives me crazy with ideas for long periods then disappears without notice just as long, if not longer, to take a breather while I go nuts trying to make even a stick figure look good.
now that i have found the hand written manuscript of my first book, and received a reference book on drawing facial expressions, I should find some good material to lure that fickle muse back to work so I can finish off the erotica series to begin editing and revising for publishing, get Society of Night and Lies off to various fiction/fantasy publishers to see if someone will pick it up. (it really is a good story according to several who have read it and want to see it published) Maybe then, I can get my mind back into Black Friday‘s continuation to help clear up the dropped names in the first, fill in holes and answer questions while sending out more to be asked.
There is so much to do and consider, I am overwhelming myself with all this work. I do see and feel a lot of joy and fun in writing and drawing, but I have a hard time focusing on just one project. This is why I am taking a break from writing to let my focus switch for a while. That way, when i come back, i can see each project all the way to the end one at a time and with more knowledge so they won’t seem so bumpy or holey.
For the curious, yes, I am considering getting myself reviewed and tested by a doctor, and probably a psychiatrist/psychologist about this problem (along with many others) to see what can be done. For now, just be glad I am at least writing and doing something other than staring at Facebook or the TV all the time.