I want to live in a dream world

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I feel depressed and my tummy hurts. I'm not sure if the two are mutually exclusive. I have not graded as much as I need to and I'm not very motivated to do it. All I know is that I'd better lose some weight from this tummmy ache thing.

I wish I knew what the hell I wanted out of life. Or what I really really look forward to. And I also wish that I understood people better. I wish that I felt more connected with me. I wish I felt like I didn't say the wrong things all the time. I wish I wasn't awkward or lame. Why am I so silly????

I miss people a lot.