Shut Up Brain!
I can't sleep, there are a lot of things going on right now and I need to get some of this stuff off of my chest.
First off, I met Someone Interesting. Someone I'd actually like to get to know a little better. Due to a few core values conflicts, I know it would never be a permanent thing, but I'd love to just start dating him. He's got one of those girl friends who seems to be pretty possessive of him, even though they're "just friends", and I don't want to start any wars, but I totally understand where she's coming from.
Second.. I can't talk about this one publicly, I'll have to put it in a locked post.
Third, my sleep schedule is all messed up because I've been working/volunteering like a dog. I was up until 4 am Sunday morning and I can't have the usual sleep aid because of a crazy crash diet (don't ask!)
The stress level is pretty high right now, even though it's only mental I feel it seriously affecting me tonight. I only hope I can overcome it so that I can sleep enough for work tomorrow.
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I miss my cat.
I miss my family.
I miss my old life.
I miss physical human contact.
I miss the security of a real place to call home, where everything is warm and someone tucks you in at night and rubs your back until you fall asleep.
I hate feeling anxious and self-doubtful.
I hate not being able to prioritize my time.
I hate not always being able to take care of myself.
I hate feeling weak and confused.
I hate feeling like this, feeling all things at once and not able to cope with them as a group.
First off, I met Someone Interesting. Someone I'd actually like to get to know a little better. Due to a few core values conflicts, I know it would never be a permanent thing, but I'd love to just start dating him. He's got one of those girl friends who seems to be pretty possessive of him, even though they're "just friends", and I don't want to start any wars, but I totally understand where she's coming from.
Second.. I can't talk about this one publicly, I'll have to put it in a locked post.
Third, my sleep schedule is all messed up because I've been working/volunteering like a dog. I was up until 4 am Sunday morning and I can't have the usual sleep aid because of a crazy crash diet (don't ask!)
The stress level is pretty high right now, even though it's only mental I feel it seriously affecting me tonight. I only hope I can overcome it so that I can sleep enough for work tomorrow.
***
I miss my cat.
I miss my family.
I miss my old life.
I miss physical human contact.
I miss the security of a real place to call home, where everything is warm and someone tucks you in at night and rubs your back until you fall asleep.
I hate feeling anxious and self-doubtful.
I hate not being able to prioritize my time.
I hate not always being able to take care of myself.
I hate feeling weak and confused.
I hate feeling like this, feeling all things at once and not able to cope with them as a group.