Mar 23, 2009 20:43
I'm exhausted. I really didn't sleep at all last night...I tossed and turned and never really fell asleep. I'm not really sure why, I really hate those kind of nights. I already went to bed later than normal/got up earlier than normal to study for a genetics quiz that we had today in class. I suppose that didn't help. Today, I also changed majors (from microbiology to molecular biology) and got unblocked so I can register for my summer/fall classes on Wednesday. So, pretty busy, and kept my mind off food. I've managed so far to successfully stay on my fast. :)
I wish I could just go to bed now...but I have to write the introduction for a scientific journal article I'm working on. I feel so completely inadequate writing this paper. I'm just an undergraduate in college...not even a PhD student. This paper is going to be critiqued/read by people much much further along than me in their education. I feel like a kindergardener trying to write a book report on War and Peace. But, Eric (the postdoc in my lab) said that he'd help me a little. I'm not sure how much "a little help" is, but goddam I hope it's a lot. This whole process is supposed to encourage and teach me, but so far I just feel dumb, stupid, and inadequate. It's making me second guess myself even more than I normally do. I just know when he reads it tomorrow he's probably going to take one look at it and laugh and tell me to forget pursing science as a career. :( :( :(
No update on Taylor. Most likely nothing is going to happen. Whatever.