"you REALLY want to know the way I am??"

[catkin]

This just kind of came out in an email

Comments

[brankauti]

It's so hard, isn't it? I know exactly what you are going through. I ended up coming home to Deke, and we are trying to work things out. There is a great hope for us, and he is working so hard to woo me and correct the problems that we had. I feel somewhat guilty that I am still so emotionally distant and that I was and am tempted by another person. I am not doing anything about it, and I won't, but it doesn't make the thoughts and feelings go away. I wish I could really feel connected to Deke on a sexual level, and I can see that he wants me and loves me and doesn't want me to leave. I don't want to leave, either. He is my best friend, and there is so much comfort there with us. But it isn't exciting

[roiben]

Good luck with the drawings. You are very talented and it would be a shame for the world to miss out on your skill.

It has indeed been a long transient journey, something that is in no way over yet. Love will come in its own time and there is no rush for it, so do the things you enjoy and it may be, that is what draws you to the relationship you yearn for.

[ash_wings]

yo hunny long time to talk.that truely mine fult I just got so rap up with what been happening that I not just had a minute to truely sit and write email.hope ya ok.