School isn't suppose to be like this
Hi LJ
So ever had those feelings of utter distress and complete devestation of having no contrl over things that you should have control over but don't? Or that you would want to bang someone's head so hard against the wall you are sure that they will never bother you again. It frightens me but lately I'm having alot of those feelings. Mainly due and because of school. I know school is suppose to be hard but is it suppose to suck and drain all the motiviation/life force out of you? I beg to think the differ.
There's an excursion coming soon to Berlin. And well first I wanted to go, I did, but that they told us how much it would cost, and then they told us which teachers were going to be the one's escorting and stuff. and One, all my motivation left me from there on (trust me you stuck with the teachers they follow you everywhere and there is one teacher who'd I rather push under a german buss then ever sit next to) and secondly all that money, where the hell do they expect that a student like me is going to get all that money.
Hello people, are you all forgetting I'm having like Japan coming up. *sighs deeply* I cancelled it, it's official now though I send a message to the counciller on school and I told him my problems and that I don't have the money, they can't obligae me to go, because I don't have the money for it, I'm way under tight budget right now so a trip to berlin is just not possible, it just isn't. Besides WHY would I pay for something I don't want? sounds fairly stupid to me. So anyway I told them the problems,
ALSO TOLD THEM, that even if I was able to pay for the excursion to berlin which is € 150 euro's FOOD AND DRINKS AND MUSEUM visits excluded (which if you count that up for 3/4 days would be along another € 150 euro's) that I can't catch it up, after I come back from my trip to berlin I'm out of a job, I still haven't found something else cause people at the moment are not looking for students who can work for them, and I want a job they just don't have stuff and I'm out of my old job soon and.. it's all.. so freaking..
FRUSTRATING! beyond believe.
I'm really tired latley, maybe because I'm stressing myself out... I don't know my parent's aren't really helping. (they can't help me out with berlin either, I don't have rich parents unfortunatly so I can't ask them for the money and even if I could I WOULDN'T. just aboslutly wouldn't my pride first place wouldn't allow it) but yeah.. I'm gonna shut up now or something. ... and sit emo in a corner. And wait for a reply from the teacher on what he has to say about it. I'll see what the extra assignment is.
So ever had those feelings of utter distress and complete devestation of having no contrl over things that you should have control over but don't? Or that you would want to bang someone's head so hard against the wall you are sure that they will never bother you again. It frightens me but lately I'm having alot of those feelings. Mainly due and because of school. I know school is suppose to be hard but is it suppose to suck and drain all the motiviation/life force out of you? I beg to think the differ.
There's an excursion coming soon to Berlin. And well first I wanted to go, I did, but that they told us how much it would cost, and then they told us which teachers were going to be the one's escorting and stuff. and One, all my motivation left me from there on (trust me you stuck with the teachers they follow you everywhere and there is one teacher who'd I rather push under a german buss then ever sit next to) and secondly all that money, where the hell do they expect that a student like me is going to get all that money.
Hello people, are you all forgetting I'm having like Japan coming up. *sighs deeply* I cancelled it, it's official now though I send a message to the counciller on school and I told him my problems and that I don't have the money, they can't obligae me to go, because I don't have the money for it, I'm way under tight budget right now so a trip to berlin is just not possible, it just isn't. Besides WHY would I pay for something I don't want? sounds fairly stupid to me. So anyway I told them the problems,
ALSO TOLD THEM, that even if I was able to pay for the excursion to berlin which is € 150 euro's FOOD AND DRINKS AND MUSEUM visits excluded (which if you count that up for 3/4 days would be along another € 150 euro's) that I can't catch it up, after I come back from my trip to berlin I'm out of a job, I still haven't found something else cause people at the moment are not looking for students who can work for them, and I want a job they just don't have stuff and I'm out of my old job soon and.. it's all.. so freaking..
FRUSTRATING! beyond believe.
I'm really tired latley, maybe because I'm stressing myself out... I don't know my parent's aren't really helping. (they can't help me out with berlin either, I don't have rich parents unfortunatly so I can't ask them for the money and even if I could I WOULDN'T. just aboslutly wouldn't my pride first place wouldn't allow it) but yeah.. I'm gonna shut up now or something. ... and sit emo in a corner. And wait for a reply from the teacher on what he has to say about it. I'll see what the extra assignment is.