Feeling Positive
I'm applying for a bunch of jobs and feeling positive about it for the first time in a while.
Clearly, something I'm doing isn't working, so I'll have to change my approach. Lately, I have been applying for jobs I found on Craigslist (that look legitimate, with proper spelling etc.) rather than just the corporate jobs posted on individual websites.
I haven't written lately because I haven't been able to get to the computer and I've been feeling private. There is actually a lot going on in my life, most of which I don't feel like talking about.
One thing I feel like I'm able to finally talk about is that Allen's dad is at Harborview, and has been since 12/18. He was hit by a car in Shoreline and was unconscious until just a few days ago. He's still loopy. I've only seen him once (when he was unconscious) but Allen's seen him more frequently, although not since he has regained consciousness.
I turned 27 on Monday. Kind of weird. I don't feel 27! The other day, my dad said, playfully, "you're turning 13, right?" and I said I couldn't believe I was "almost 17." A Freudian slip, indeed, but we laughed at it and I pretended I meant to say 17, rather than it being a Freudian slip.
My brother and his girlfriend broke up, which has been horrendous. They were together for eight years and it has been hard on all of us. She felt like family to us. To make it worse, she moved back home to Oklahoma today. I don't know how my brother is doing, although he told us not to worry about him. I can't imagine ending an eight year relationship, especially when you've lived together for seven years, would be easy for anyone for any reason. He must be very lonely right now.
I saw Deirdre's baby, Blake, today. He is soooo cute. I fell in love with him immediately. He's such a tough little guy! I got to hold him and he melted into my arms. It was also great to see Deirdre, too. I pledge to be better and keeping in touch and hanging out with her. I bet with two young kids, breast feeding, and being a stay at home mom, any adult time feels great! I know it does to me and I only have one kid. Deirdre also looks amazing. Her baby just fell out and her weight is gone. Poof.
But Blake... swoon... I love him <3
I'm feeling positive now that the new year has come. I know God has some great things in store for me. I just need to be patient. I hope I continue to feel positive for a while longer, instead of having a "crash" tomorrow, as I often do after a day of genuine positivity. I suppose I use up all of my positivity in hopes of things happening immediately, and when they don't, I "crash." We'll see.
But God is so much bigger than all of this stuff. I pray multiple times a day and always leave my problems with God. I'm too small for these big problems, but God isn't.
It's crazy. If Allen gets an internship, we'll be moving to some random location. It could honestly be anywhere. I don't know when we'd be leaving Seattle, or if his grades or qualifications are good enough to get him into internships. Or how we'd pay for them. Or how we'd afford to live in our new location. If the economy were better, well, it would be now sweat!
Alana is wonderful, beautiful, amazing, intelligent, sweet, and probably just pooped.
I'd like to promise I'll update more, or keep up with your journals, but I can't promise anything.
Take care!
P.S. Did everyone know that when H&M has extra clothes, they do not donate them to charity? They slice them up and throw them away. So does Walmart. Boycott!
Clearly, something I'm doing isn't working, so I'll have to change my approach. Lately, I have been applying for jobs I found on Craigslist (that look legitimate, with proper spelling etc.) rather than just the corporate jobs posted on individual websites.
I haven't written lately because I haven't been able to get to the computer and I've been feeling private. There is actually a lot going on in my life, most of which I don't feel like talking about.
One thing I feel like I'm able to finally talk about is that Allen's dad is at Harborview, and has been since 12/18. He was hit by a car in Shoreline and was unconscious until just a few days ago. He's still loopy. I've only seen him once (when he was unconscious) but Allen's seen him more frequently, although not since he has regained consciousness.
I turned 27 on Monday. Kind of weird. I don't feel 27! The other day, my dad said, playfully, "you're turning 13, right?" and I said I couldn't believe I was "almost 17." A Freudian slip, indeed, but we laughed at it and I pretended I meant to say 17, rather than it being a Freudian slip.
My brother and his girlfriend broke up, which has been horrendous. They were together for eight years and it has been hard on all of us. She felt like family to us. To make it worse, she moved back home to Oklahoma today. I don't know how my brother is doing, although he told us not to worry about him. I can't imagine ending an eight year relationship, especially when you've lived together for seven years, would be easy for anyone for any reason. He must be very lonely right now.
I saw Deirdre's baby, Blake, today. He is soooo cute. I fell in love with him immediately. He's such a tough little guy! I got to hold him and he melted into my arms. It was also great to see Deirdre, too. I pledge to be better and keeping in touch and hanging out with her. I bet with two young kids, breast feeding, and being a stay at home mom, any adult time feels great! I know it does to me and I only have one kid. Deirdre also looks amazing. Her baby just fell out and her weight is gone. Poof.
But Blake... swoon... I love him <3
I'm feeling positive now that the new year has come. I know God has some great things in store for me. I just need to be patient. I hope I continue to feel positive for a while longer, instead of having a "crash" tomorrow, as I often do after a day of genuine positivity. I suppose I use up all of my positivity in hopes of things happening immediately, and when they don't, I "crash." We'll see.
But God is so much bigger than all of this stuff. I pray multiple times a day and always leave my problems with God. I'm too small for these big problems, but God isn't.
It's crazy. If Allen gets an internship, we'll be moving to some random location. It could honestly be anywhere. I don't know when we'd be leaving Seattle, or if his grades or qualifications are good enough to get him into internships. Or how we'd pay for them. Or how we'd afford to live in our new location. If the economy were better, well, it would be now sweat!
Alana is wonderful, beautiful, amazing, intelligent, sweet, and probably just pooped.
I'd like to promise I'll update more, or keep up with your journals, but I can't promise anything.
Take care!
P.S. Did everyone know that when H&M has extra clothes, they do not donate them to charity? They slice them up and throw them away. So does Walmart. Boycott!