hmm...boys, boys, boys....
Isn't it funny, when we have someone we're happy for the first little bit...they're the light of our life...then the novelty wears off and all we can talk about is how much of an ass they are and how stupid can we be for dating them? then we find osmeone new and the cycle continues...but then you meet that one boy...who when you're with him he drives you insaine...but when you're not with him you're constantly miserable...and each relationship you think is love because that's what you want. i dunno i've had a ton of relationships...most repeats. can't count how many times i dated dennis before i decided he was a loser that wasn't going anywhere. from 8th grade on up to freshman year of college. now it's jeb...back and forth. he loves me so, yet when i date him he's never there. he swears he is gonna change. right now we have like this underlying mutual agreement. we're not 'dating' but when i come down for holidays we can still cuddle and stuff. it's kinda nice :) no commitments...yet all the benefits. I want to believe deep down that he loves me...but yet adam says he loves me too...yet i'm not sure either of them are what i want. jeb is gonna live in a small town the rest of his life..that's where he's happiest...adam, well he doesn't know how to express himself and hes' too wrapped up into computers. I want a guy who is exciting and adventurous. someone who intrigues me...maybe a bit kinky and mysterious too. the kind that is willing to try something new...but only with me. no cheaters!!! no assholes!! a guy who genuinely cares and knows how to show it. someone who isn't afraid to open up and tell me how they feel. someone i can relate to and someone who gives as well as receives. someone who will let me get close to them and some one i can get close to. so until i find mr. right....i'll have fun with all the mr. wrongs. hehe.